Jul 12
I didn’t have anyone to play with as a kid so I struggle to differentiate between someone just playing with me as an adult and someone with intention. I’m the kid who spent recess sitting against the fence, picking dandelions, or just pacing around the playground waiting for recess to be over. When I play, it’s with intention. I forget that playing and friendship are not unnatural for everyone else.
#so I don’t know#last night I was mentioning how I got put on the task that stresses me out again. and he’s like Let’s switch.#obviously a joke because he is not trained on it anyway. Hes like ‘then you can do this’ and I’m like :| uhmmmm nah Ill stay#his task just bores me is all. but I’m like ‘Maybe later. I’ll let you know when I’m Actually overwhelmed and it’s too much for one person#THEN we’ll switch. obviously as a joke like. I’ll keep it while it’s not too bad but give you the shitty end of the stick. Since you Offered#after lunch I was StressING so I sent him a message ‘ok we can switch now -.-‘ mostly just an excuse to send him a message#cuz I like to floss that I have the ability to do that. so I send my bois messages. sometimes it’s just a poop emoji because I’m 33y#and after like 10 minutes I have to pass nearish his station so I walk over like 🤷🏻♂️?? and he’s all ‘I didn’t even get your message.’#despite that meaning he 100% got it because nobody said anything about a message. ‘Yeah like a box popped up and it was just jibberish#so I’m like idk what that says and closed it out.’ so I’m like ‘Oh Well I can translate. it’s time for us to switch’ ‘Ohhhh Ok ok’#and I smirk and walk away and he starts following me. I turn back ‘Are you actually following me?’ ‘Keep walking!!’ and follows me 2 my post#so I’m like ‘Ok your station is right over there. you got this!’ and walk off. and he keeps walking towards it as I leave. until I’m like#lol that’s enough and turn around and he turned back to me at about the same time cuz he looked so confused. smiles in like a ‘ok fun’s over#.. and like that’s very elementary. but I never Play. playing is very intentional for me so it feels intentional when ppl play back.#or later I go up to him with a mistake he made like ‘You’re not making my day any easier!’ and he goes#‘I just needed a way to get you over here’ —- see that’s the type of shit I say to my bois#or later I go up to him and he’s like Oh I was Just on my way to come switch! and I’m let ok and take over his station. but it’s a specific#station that idk the flow of so he’s like No No !! you gotta do this!! so I’m like Okkk and do start doing it#and he’s just following me as I do it. and now we’re two people doing a one person task and if you remember with Glasses - I love that shit#I consider that a very intimate form of play lmao. and our hands are close and we’re just working as one.#like idk. the way he says things and the way he puts energy into me feels intentional but I could be misreading.#anyway he brought up my hypothetical age twice yesterday and I thought oh maybe he’s trying to get me to tell him how old I am so I went bac#and confessed I’m gonna be 34 :(. and he just keeps saying ?? you’re lying. I don’t believe you. what!? no way.#so he knows now I could be his dad.#I didn’t ask for an exchange so idk how old he is but I’m sure he’s only 22#so anyways that’s that on that. I came home and passed tf out. but woke hp after only 3 hours so awesome. gotta go charge my phone#tootles.
