#tooru.writes

— where your longtime crush, phainon, hands you.. a boyfriend application?

· phainon x gn!reader .

NOTES: modern au, implied childhood friends to lovers, no use of pronouns for user, author needs coffee, enjoy.

youve known phainon for as long as you can remember, growing up together had you form a bond which was downright unbreakable. watching him grow taller was annoying, the way he started towering over everything and anything, i mean, you were tall, yes but his height was almost eldritch-like.

the closeness had made you gain feelings without even noticing, which,, you didnt think to be horrible at first.

although of course, those thoughts went straight to hell when you started noticing he hadnt shown any signs about the feelings being mutual.

it started getting mildly frustrating, every touch felt like a reminder, every loving gaze felt like a jab at your heart. and it didnt get better when he invited you out for a ‘date’.

“.. phainon, youve been digging holes in that menu for over thirty minutes now. didnt you suggest this place?” you nudged him in an attempt to get his attention, which. seemed to work.

“oh- right! im sorry, im just. uhm.. im trying to think on how to say this.” phainon responded quickly, stopping a few times to form his sentence correctly. he was hiding something. and your suspicions prove to be correct once you saw some neatly folded paper stapled together, which further deepened your curiosity.

“its .. an application, with all my qualities listed on it. please take a look..?” you were a bit taken aback, he hadnt mentioned any attempts at finding a proper job before.

“you idiot, you couldve just said that. alright ill take a look.” looking away from him, you focus on the sheets of paper. opening it to start reading.

alright, ‘official application for a boyfriend position—’

...

huh?

huh??

HUUH???

practically shooting your eyes over to him, you tilt your head, brows furrowing as you stare at him like he just confessed to murdering a family of 4.

“y..you.. sorry, what?”

phainon looks,, as dumb as he usually does, merely blinking. “is there a spelling error again? i thought i cleared them all, im sorry ...”

“what? no, nonono. you idiot, you absolute dumbfuck. i.. what is this??” you hold the top of the papers, brows knitted harder as you go back and forth between him and the sheet.

“ OFFICIAL BOYFRIEND APPLICATION. ”

Name: Phainon Age: 22 Height: 215cm

below those, all his qualities such as occupation, his earnings, skills in cleaning, cooking and whatever else you can think of were proudly displayed.

“do you.. have an issue? am i not up to your standards?” he was trying his best to hide it, but the way those puppy eyes appeared sadder as he slowly hunched down in uncertain defeat told you everything you needed to know. he was anxious, but holy fuck he liked you back. a little.. too much.

“i dont but,, seriously phai, two pages? what even was your thought process?” noticing how his little ahoge practically straightened itself up in joy, he showed you a fond smile and carried on.

“well i.. i didnt know if you liked me in a romantic setting and i .. i didnt want to accidentally put you in a bad spot.. but i wanted you to know of my skillset soidecidedonanapplicationand—”

“...”

“say something please..?”

“you fucking idiot. for someone who was the first in his class, you lack severe common sense.”

“... im sorry? did i do something?” there he was again, that stupid head tilt he does when stuck on something. does the thinking make more sense at a 45° angle? no one knows.

sigh.

“what im saying is. you.. you didnt need a whole fucking application. i like you too, my stupid puppy.”

— where you, phainon's beloved, decide to refer to him by name rather than a petname.

· phainon x reader .

NOTES: might be ooc, can be imagined as canon universe or modern au. i pulled this out of my ass at midnight, enjoy 🙏

the living space was.. warm, and even comforting to say the least. the mornings were often slow, but they were filled with the shared fondness between you and your lover, Phainon of Aedes Elysiae. its been about a year since you and phainon decided to officially date, more if you count the time youve known each other for.

phainon's a saint, honestly. he never fails to show his love and adoration for you, whether it be by words or adornments. he even manages to grin like a damned dog whenever hes around you. honestly sometimes you swear you can see a tail wagging behind him.

although you do fight, it usually gets resolved fairly easily, and you surprisingly forgive him after holding a grudge for a day or two, so its all good.

..

so imagine his surprise when you call him by name for the first time.

“phainon? im heading to the market to get some groceries, do you need anything?” something sounded like it crashed as soon as you finished that sentence. and true enough, it was your lover stumbling around the corner to meet you at the front door. god he looked like a kicked puppy.

“are you upset? love did i do something?" he immediately follows up, eyes having that wide look like he had just been found guilty of a crime. honestly? it was starting to get harder to play pretend.

“...no? what are you saying, are you alright, phainon?”

you see him blink once, and again before he cautiously made his way to you, looking into your eyes as he held both your hands in his.

“are .. are you sure? why are you calling me phainon...? i mean, thats my name so i dont mind it as much but. are you not that fond of the petnames anymore..?”

“mm.. you prefer petnames that much? you never told me.”

“yes. yes i do! calling me phainon makes me believe youre upset.. i dont want you upset at me ..”

“awh my love .. alright, ill keep that in mind, okay?” taking your hands out his grip, you slowly place them on either side of his face, trying to hold back a smile when he tilts his head to the side. he really is a puppy, isnt he ..

“okay ... but you aren't mad right? you'd tell me if you were?”

“uh huh.. yes beloved, i would. now, im going to the store, do you need me to get anything for you?”

you watch as he shakes his head no, leaning in for a kiss afterwards to bid you goodbye properly. the puppy eyed man smiling when you returned it.

after crossing the front door, you finally go,

“ill be back in an hour, phainon.”

his smile drops instantly.

uh oh.

— where your dearest boyfriend, phainon, wants your attention.

· phainon x gn! reader

NOTES: may be ooc, phainon calls reader 'star' idk why i decided on it, idk where im getting these ideas, author is tired as fuck save meSAVEMESAVEM

engaging in a community felt .. draining, unnecessary, so you mainly joined servers to lurk and act as the ‘overseer’.

although. the renowned three year streak of being said lurker quickly got ruined by a group of extroverts who collectively decided to adopt you.

you were complaining at first, i mean, feeling like youre forcing your way into an already establish space feels.. off. but it honestly turned out to be really fun. i mean, interacting, playing together in a server catered specifically to the game you enjoy was.. oddly enjoyable. and for the bonus, you were one of the mods, so technically you could still do the lurking.

..

now, normally this wouldnt be a problem.

except.

“.. phai, my love, what in aeon's name are you doing?” you look down, back pressed against your bed's headrest as you look down from your phone.

this 215 cm, fully grown man thats essentially no better than a dog was at your legs, staying true to his nature by imitating a needy puppy pawing at your clothing to get your attention. god hes hopeless. and adorable, but he cant know that. no way.

“nothing... what are you so busy with?” he didnt even bother hiding how he redirected the question, opting to have his elbows raised up to place his chin on his palms instead, still staring at you. those fucking eyes..

“well, i was gonna host a gaming event for the entire server but—” you cut your own sentence off. eyes blinking as if they were trying to process information. oh. oh fuck youve been neglecting him.

“give me a second, alright?” moving one of your hands down, you start by stroking his hair before making it down to rest on his cheek, smiling once he nuzzled his cheek onto your palm.

“... nno.” before even managing to ask him what he meant by that, you get your phone snatched. surely the neglect wasnt that bad..?

feeling your legs get pulled in some quick manner, youre laying flat on the bed before you can even realize it, phainon slowly making his way ontop to cuddle like he doesnt weigh a metric-fuck-ton.

“good fuck youre heavy— ahem, its okay.. im sorry for neglecting you, okay? i didnt think i did it that often, but judging by how i have a 215cm man ontop of me..”

“uh huh... are you criticizing me, my star? i didnt think youd choose to be so cruel right after abandoning me.”

“.. abandoning you? so we've skipped the specifics entirely? well.. whatever, im here now, we can cuddle to your heart's content, love.”

shifting his weight a bit to the side so he doesnt entirely suffocate you, he seems satisfied with the response with the way he hides his face in your neck, arm half-curled to the left side of your face for added affection. your lover relaxes completely once you pressed a kiss against his cheek and held him closer.

hes warm, like everything youve ever known, like the feeling of home. maybe you should dial back on the discord mod duty.

“ this one is ass, i apologize. ”