#tonbi

In my own little world Time means not a thing, although it used to Whereas inside your own Time’s stopped, you’re stuck, and my image haunts you

Living through the days that passed me by Waking moments nothing but pain But now it’s alright Gone is the source of my cheeks’ red stain

My voice revolving round inside your skull Do you even remember my name? Say it out loud, dear

After all, I’m indifferent now You no longer have a hold on me My life’s already faded

The withered flower of my heart Blooms again, freed from lament Closer, let’s dance, but don’t hold too tight Don’t break me like last time! Monotony of memory Mobius strip of malice past Gently, nudge it off to the side Like my fading legacy

Allow me to present to you The pleasures that offered myself solace Held aloft, I can be lost In joy, in love, things you rarely graced me with

From head to toe, dreams blur and sway I let my eyes relax, so I can melt away

Unfinished business and regret? I don’t let it bother me at all Dear, you worry too much, so pitiful

The dried-out husk that was my heart Is quenched by space, and time, and care I forgave you and your broken headspace long ago

The monotony of memory Always produces the same result So now I can release these thoughts And let go of you

お釈迦になれずに泣いちゃって ずっと何もせずに痛いのに 法螺吹きの本意が何だって きっとここにあるのは 変われない

Instead of becoming Shakyamuni, I cry my eyes out Even if I’ve been hurting instead of doing anything all this while What’s the real intentions of a braggart? Surely it couldn’t change what’s here now

生命線  後悔  証明  なんて   半端な  愛に  縋って  狙った気がしてしょうがないが 切って  継いで  接いで

Lifeline, regret and proof, all clinging to an odd love Can’t be helped that I feel like I’m being aimed at, but I’ll cut it, and patch them it all back

咲いていないけど  気になっちゃって 何回だって嫉妬って 病みつきのその旋律

It hasn’t bloomed yet but it’s gotten me curious and made me jealous time and time again, that sick melody…

アイ[1]に縋って  ゲイムを待ってずっと笑っていた   もう感情的になっちゃってみたいからさ 向かい風だって  鳴いてみたって  落っこちてバイバイだ もう出来損ないの音楽なんて  要らないわ！ 真っ向に喰らって  こんがらがって  最低になってんだ こんなセカイにも生きている意味が欲しいからさ 何万回だって間違って  まだ   癒えない  言えない  家ない！？

Clinging to love, waiting for the game, I smiled all the while because I wanted to try becoming the sentimental type Going against the wind, whining, but once I fall it’s bye-bye I don’t need some useless music anymore! Devouring straight ahead, getting mixed up in it all and becoming the absolute worst I can be Because I want some meaning to my life in this world No matter how many thousands of times I get it wrong, I can’t heal, I can’t say, I’ve no house!?

羽のない天使になったって ずっとこの想いは消えないのに あの人の鼓動が鳴っていて   こんな音になんて  違えない

Even if I become an angel with no wings These feelings will never disappear But the sound of that person’s pulse beating Can’t be any different from mine!

先天性  崩壊  到底  泣いて 最低  生涯  だって ヘラったフリしてどうしようがもう 知ったこっちゃないね

Hereditary destruction, in the end, I cry This lifetime is the absolute worst I no longer know what to do as I pretend to laugh

最適解→  愛でも気になんないね 曖昧だって  奪って 錆び付き歌う記憶

Even if the optimal solution is love, it doesn’t interest me Ambiguous as it is, I’ll be stealing that rusty memory I sing

哀に染まって  描いて鳴らして  劣等と競っていた 本当も嘘も壊して  彷徨っていたい！ 深い傷負って  暮らしていたって  きっと理解んないな もう感情付きの声明なんて  効かないわ！ 真っ当に伝って  どうにかなって  勝ったってそんなんじゃ どんな期待にも沿えずいる  義理が惜しい怖さ 何兆回だって失って 彷徨えない  酔えない  まだ

Dyed in sadness, drawing and ringing it, I challenged inferiority I want to destroy both truth and lies and get lost! Bearing deep wounds, living through it, I certainly don’t understand Those prayers filled with emotions don’t affect me anymore! Even if I go about it straight and it all works out and I win, it doesn’t mean anything The fear that obligations are regrettable does not meet any expectations No matter how many trillions and billions of times I lose it I can’t get lost, I can't get drunk, not yet…

アイ[1]に縋って  ゲイムを待ってずっと迷っていた もう音楽で晴らしてやりたいからさ 向かい風だって  鳴いてみたって  落っこちてバイバイだ もう出来損ないの音楽なんて  要らないわ！ 真っ向に喰らって  こんがらがって  最低になってんだ   こんなセカイにも生きている意味が無かったとしても 最大の愛でぶつかって  まだ   癒えない  言えない  知らない  見えない  知りたい  知りたい  知りたい！！！

Clinging to love, waiting for the game, I was lost all the while because I wanted to try to cheer myself up with music Going against the wind, whining, but once I fall it’s bye-bye I don’t need some useless music anymore! Devouring straight ahead, getting mixed up in it all and becoming the absolute worst I can be Even if there’s no meaning to my life in this world I strike with the greatest love there is, and still I can’t heal, I can’t say, I don’t know, I can’t see, I want to know, I want to know, I want to know!!!

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