#tomlinudes

Today, I learned 2 things: 1) Getting into a radio interview for One Direction is much, much, much harder than anyone's ever suspected AND 2) It gets much, much, much, MUCH more rewarding. I know the second reason might seem confusing at first but let me take you a few hours back to clear that up and to tell you my story.  The entire way, our conversations mostly consisted of “Kristina! Kristina! Where the hell are you?!?” and "Where did you go?!? Stay close to me!" In response, I’d feel someone grab my shoulder which I assumed would be Kristina; and continue to attempt not to lose Leanna and Lawrence who were both holding my hands. I tried to convince my parents to not even bring my younger siblings in the first place but my parents insisted and told me that Kristina can help me. Somewhat, I felt a bit grateful for letting my parents trust me to take care of my siblings in such a crazy crowded place but now I feel more stressed out because let me tell you, my siblings are not the easiest kids to take care of. Most of the time.  It was one of those scary moments when I’d feel Kristina’s hand slip off my shoulder and I would yell again “Kristina!” and then she’d quickly answer “I’m here! I’m here! I just can’t reach you!” and then a couple of seconds later there would be a hand on my shoulder again. We continued like that until we got to a room that was just as crowded but everyone was less pushy. In short: the boys were abso-frickin-lutely amazing. When some of my friends say that they look like images of perfection, they weren't kidding. They were BEAUTIFUL. I remember when I would just stare back at the computer screen and dry sob all over the place because of their perfection; my mind and my brain were too overwhelmed. But it didn't come to a point when I would faint. Thank god I didn't because that would be so embarrassing. Anyways, Kristina and I were fangirling so much as well and also quietly listened to them as they were being interviewed. After the interview, they performed a few songs for us on the album and they sounded flawless live. When the chorus of "More Than This" started, the boys belted it out at the same time, singing their hearts out. As I continued to stare and gap at them, I saw Louis' sea blue eyes captured mine for a good couple of seconds and I swear, I thought I was going to melt. But then he quickly broke the eye contact as they continued singing. I told Kristina what happened and she nudged me jokingly saying that could possibly be a "Love Connection." I rolled my eyes at her weird assumption and it was such a small thing, it was impossible for Louis to recognize or even remember. I shrugged it off and continued to enjoy the show and the boys' presence. After it was done, everyone got ushered out of the all-too-crowded room into the all-too-crowded-and-pushy area that had served as the over flow room. Everyone was still excited about what we’d all just witnessed. I got back into the routine of making sure I was holding two hands and another was on my shoulder. I was trying to get out of the room onto the slightly less crowded street when I saw a familiar girl weaving through the crowd. I stopped in my tracks and watched her just to make sure. I felt Kristina bump into me. “Why did you stop?” She asked. “Is that…?” I said nodding my head towards the girl. “Phoebe?” She said. We stood there and watched her for a while. Her blonde hair whipping her face as she looked around the crowd with wide scared eyes. “Do you think she looks lost?” I asked. “Yeah.” As we looked at each other worriedly, I felt a tug on my shirt as I looked at my brother. "Can we go now?!?" he asked impatiently.  "Just wait Lawrence, I think we need to help her," Leanna spoke out, understanding both Kristina and I's concerned faces.  "Ok, let's go," I pulled both of their hands with Kristina following closely behind and pushed our way to the crowd as we walked towards the little girl. Once we reached her, I lightly placed a hand on her shoulder. "Hey, are you lost?" I bent down so I could be at eye level with Phoebe. She nodded her head slowly, her eyes still looked frightened.  "Don't be scared. I'm Lorraine; this is Kristina and my siblings Leanna and Lawrence. We're here to help you." I introduced myself and pointed at the others as well. Her eyes suddenly turned calm and her posture less tense. "My name is Phoebe Tomlinson," she managed to say, her British accent similar to her brother's.  "Alright Phoebe, let's take you back to your brother ok?" I said softly and kindly to her as she nodded. Kristina took out her hand and Phoebe held it tightly as we walked back to the building. At the door, a huge bodyguard blocked the entrance. As we walked to him nervously, we told him if we can get through. He quickly responded with a firm "NO." We tried to explain to him the reason why we need to get inside the building to see the boys, but the stubborn bodyguard disturbed and threatened us and told us that if we don't leave at this second, he would send a few more bodyguards out to make sure that we'll never get close to the building again. Obviously he couldn't see one of the band member's little sister is actually here with us. I looked at my siblings to see their frustrated faces and Kristina's pissed-off look. Then I saw Phoebe, her eyes almost glistening with tears. Anger seeped through me and before I could lash out at the bodyguard, two familiar figures were coming towards us. As they came closer, a loud booming sound echoed in the building, "Is there a problem?" Then right in front of us was Liam who was assisted by their famous bodyguard, or should I say babysitter, Paul. Paul asked the bodyguard again if there was a problem as they both look back at us with curious eyes.  "No, there isn't. They were just leavin-"  "Um, no! I don't think so!" I disturbed him. I know that was rude to interrupt and probably not a good first impression to Paul and Liam, but at this time, I still felt angry. Normally when I get angry, I don't usually shout or express my feelings while letting everyone know, but right now, I suddenly have this random burst of courage and bravery to stand up for myself. I took a huge sigh and continued. "There is a problem here Paul. Apparently, THIS bodyguard here," I pointed to him, "wouldn't let us through this building and he wouldn't even give the chance to say the reason why!" I felt a hand on my shoulder as I turned to face Kristina. She gave me a look that said, "I'll take it from here. You go calm yourself down and watch over Phoebe." She gave me a small smile and I nodded. I let Phoebe hold my hand and watched Kristina explain to the two bodyguards what happened. Liam was also listening to the conversation with his mouth forming an 'O' on his face. Liam looked at us and his eyes widened as he saw Phoebe. He then shook Paul's arm to tell him that we're actually telling the truth and Paul gave the bodyguard a death glare as well as a disapproving look. Bless this man. Liam and Paul led us inside the building and backstage where the dressing rooms are. They knocked a few times until Zayn answered and opened the door. "Oi! Vas' happening?" "Guess who's finally decided to come back to us," Liam said happily. Phoebe pulled me inside the dressing room as all of the boys' eyes were on us.  "Phoebe!" "Lou-Lou!" I watched as she ran to her brother's arms and hugged each other tightly.  "I'm sorry I got mad at you and tried to run away," Phoebe said as she looked down on the ground. "Don't worry love. It's alright, as long as you're here now, that's all that matters," Louis said to her as they hugged once again.  "Phoebe, you're back!" A little girl who looked exactly like Phoebe spoke out in her cute voice. "Daisy! Twin!" Louis put her down to let the twins hug and went to the corner to continue playing with each other.  After I watched this adorable moment, I looked around to see Kristina and Leanna giggling as Liam talked to them. Also Lawrence was talking animatedly with Harry, Niall and Zayn. Probably about video games. I felt a pair of eyes on me as I turned around to see Louis walking towards me. 'Oh my gosh, I can't believe this is happening. Ok Lorraine, breathe,' I thought to myself.  "Hi. Thank you so very much for finding Phoebe. We're so grateful for bringing her back," he said as he flashed me a smile.  "It was nothing. It's not that very hard to find a small girl in the crowd," I jokingly said. I looked back at him and nervously chuckled and also giving him a smile before looking back down at the ground. 'You are such an idiot Lorraine, LOOK UP!' I thought. He laughed. "I'm sorry babe, I didn't seem to catch your name," he asked me.  "Lorraine," I said shyly. What is wrong with me? What happened to the brave Lorraine that totally pwned the bodyguard earlier?!?

"Well, that's a lovely name," he said as he took my hand and kissed it lightly. Oh my gosh, what a gentleman. I felt heat creeping up my cheeks as I feel myself blush. He smiled at me hugely before striking up a conversation. I gave myself a huge sigh before finally opening up and continued talking to Louis. He was super sweet, kind and HILARIOUS. I kept on laughing at all of his silly jokes, even though some of them were pretty stupid but still very funny. As I told him more about myself and my boring life, he would look at me with his beautiful eyes attentively, which made it pretty hard to concentrate as I was talking. And I was right. I got so lost in his eyes that my voice trailed away and I stopped talking. We ended up just looking at each other and for some reason, it felt like his face was getting closer and closer to mine's. Before finally processing what is actually happening, Kristina's voice yelled out so loudly that we both broke eye contact and stood up straight.  "YO LORRAINE!" I shot daggers at her while glaring at her and her face look shocked as she saw what was supposed to happen. She gave an apologetic look and walked towards me.  "Woops, sorry about that Lorraine. But we need to get home. NOW. Your parents are going to kill you if we arrive home late you know?" she explained. I looked at my siblings who were now looking at me with kissy faces. Oh god, please stop.  "Ok fine, let's say our goodbyes," I sighed in defeat. As we quickly hugged all of the boys, got their autographs and pictures, we headed out the door. But before I closed the door, a hand stopped it and pushed it open. It was Louis. "Do you happen to have a twitter account?" he asked me. I laughed at his random question, expecting a last goodbye from him instead. "Yeah, I do."  "Great! What is it?" I told him my twitter account and he told me that he'll follow me ASAP. Then we hugged and said our goodbyes. As I attempted to close the door, Louis opened it once again. "Now what Louis?" I laughed. "Will I ever see you again?" he asked seriously as he looked at me straight in the eyes. I heard a "C'mon Lorraine!" from Leanna and I looked at them, who were waiting impatiently for me down the hallway.  "Maybe...Someday." I smiled.