#toji defender

Can we just talk about the fact that Toji Fushiguro is actually lonely and tragic even if he tries to tell himself that he doesnt care? He lost the one love of his life, the only sliver of happiness he got after being abused and out casted by the Zenin clan, he sold Megumi off because he thought the Zenin clan would provide better opportunities for Megumi, he knew he couldn't be the father Megumi needed, and though it wasnt the right decision in the end, he TRIED to do what he thought was best. Ultimately the fact he told Gojo showed that he held regret AND still wanted the best for his son, even in his dying moments. Not to mention he ended himself so he wouldnt kill Megumi in the seance section. He did what he did to Gojo because he wanted to prove he was SOMETHING, to be seen as something by the very people who made him feel like he was nothing. He wanted more, he wanted to BE more, but he did it in all the wrong ways. Then not only that, that scene of him and Shiu where Shiu declined going to eat, Toji Fushiguro was really alone to the very moment he died both times. He tried so hard to convince himself he didnt care about anything anymore when deep down, in that soul crushing part inside of him, he cared too much and it all came out irrationally. The fact he lost his only happiness, his sunshine, his light, the moment he was getting better. Toji tried to stop hoping, because what point was there to hoping when it would just get crushed again? But deep down he still hoped, in a twisted, rotten, broken way. It became hard to want to change because the moment you leave rock bottom theres always going to be that possibility of falling right back down, again. Alot of people dont realize how honestly realistic he is, hes a product of his environment, of his childhood, he became sour and bitter and rotten and twisted, because that, for the most part, was all that he had known. I love you Toji Fushiguro, they could never make me hate you 🫶🏻

Can we also talk about the fact Toji will never be able to heal from his trauma and will never have the chance to redeem himself. That gives me an awful feeling in my heart. He had to die with regret and loss. He could never escape loneliness, he was alone both times he died. Its realistic, honestly, because not everyone gets a happy ending. Not everyone can escape that loneliness before passing. And the way he turned out too, albeit bad and tragic, is realistic too. Not everyone heals, not everyone changes, even if they want to, even if they want more, want better than what they have. Hes a good example of that. He tried to tell himself he didnt care anymore but it was obvious he still did. Tojis as flawed and imperfect and human as they come.