#togxpi

i cant stop thinking about you tonight and how much i wish we talked more. i fucking hate covid, i’m so sorry it took you so young. you are a huge ray of happiness and you helped me more in this life more than you know over the past couple years. i hope i see you again in the next life.

it randomly hits me but i can’t accept it, i hope you’re at rest because you deserved that so much. 9 years and i just wish we could have hung out and talked so much more. i’m in my feels tonight but i really hope you knew just how loved you were (are)

1. coffee or tea 2. early bird or night owl 3. chocolate or vanilla 4. spring or fall 5. silver or gold 6. pop or alternative 7. freckles or dimples 8. snakes or sharks 9. mountains or fields 10. thunderstorm or lightning 11. egyptian or greek mythology 12. ivory or scarlet 13. flute or lyre 14. eyes or lips 15. witch or fairy 16. opal or diamond 17. butterflies or honeybees 18. macarons or eclairs 19. typewritten or handwritten letters 20. secret garden or secret library 21. rooftop or balcony 22. spicy or mild 23. opera or ballet 24. london or paris 25. vincent van gogh or claude monet 26. denim or leather 27. potions or spells 28. ocean or desert 29. mermaid or siren 30. masquerade ball or cocktail party

hey i don’t know if you know this but you’ve got the most unpopular opinion in the universe i don’t even know where to begin. 

seriously your characterization? phenomenal. the way you take a sentence and make it feel real? awe-inspiring. 

i honestly can’t even remember when we started talking but it’s gotta be closer to 4 ish years ago now, right? anyway i’m so happy to have you in my life and that you’ve managed to put up with me through all these years khjdfkjdfg. even though it SUCKS that you live all the way over in the us while i’m stuck in sweden it’s really cool to be able to tell people that i have a friend over there lmao, and at least the timezones make it so that you’re awake when i’m stumbling home from the club drunk off my ass :’) hopefully we’ll meet in person someday, maybe you’ll come visit sweden and i can show you around my fairytale city. either way: sarai, you’re so kind and pretty and lovely in every way i can think of. i hate that people have hurt you and i wish that i could protect you from the world, but again, being in sweden makes that a lot harder than it could’ve been. you’ve been a constant in my life through some of my hardest times and you’ve helped me soo much over the years, babe. i hope you have a wonderful birthday and that you have people around you who love and appreciate you at least half as much as i do. 

SU psong: california - blink182