I have this yearning, this insatiable hunger to feel more. I want to feel everything. experience my life through my senses. I want him to grip me so hard they leave bruises while he kisses my mouth with the same urgency. I want him to make me feel like a brent faiyaz song, a daniel caesar lyric. for him to slowly touch me and it feels like acute ripples in time. I want him to breath me in and exhale sunshine. I want to experience love through my senses.. because they don’t lie.

why can’t you love me right ?

You tame my wandering soul everytime you decide not to touch me .. everytime you’d rather be out than penetrating me, you chip away at my beliefs in love. after coercing me to believe you were food for my soul and that you’d feed my mind .. you let me starve

who are you anymore ?

do you value our intimacy? it doesn’t feel that way. am I your favorite or would you rather something hands can’t touch. this is supposed to be so much more than a love affair. you were supposed to fill me up and feel me up but im empty and numb.

are you scared ?

did someone cause this or did you have it in your blueprints.. why can’t you love me right ? just indulge yourself, immerse yourself in me, I promise it can drown you

Well, it's 2023.

It's crazy how shitty 2022 was for me, hopefully I make some good memories with good people and get my shit together.

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