okay so personal tma fics reading list*:
Jonah Backstory [honorific]:
all praise! he's found the awful truth! by foreverthyme. this is canon to me btw, THE jonah backstory of all time. it has both jonah/smirke (unrequited) and jonah/barnabas as main parings but I lovelovelove both the family backstory for jonah AND his relationship with mordechai. 100/10.
Hyacinthus Crowned by Trefoil_9. this is just. holy shit. only fic ever that made me tolerate lonelyeyes (very minor paring) but also another heartbreaking jonah/smirke fic from smirke's pov. both dark and just deeply tragic. insane writing skills too.
Monstrous Thing by Prim_The_Amazing. Def less tragic than the other two, mostly a insanely good jonah character study.
Identity horror (both Jon and Jonah-centric):
In the Eye of the Beholder by AmunetMana. Jonah loses an eye and has overall an insanely bad time. THEEE fic for me. I love it so much, makes me wanna vomit my soul out. Identity horror done RIGHT.
Merry-Go-Round by Prim_The_Amazing. Stranger!Jon. Shan't say more.
Gnothi Seauton by cuttooth. Jonah-centric. I've never been able to reread this one because it makes me too anxious. lol. lmao even.
Perchance to Dream by heart_to_pen_to_paper. Jon-centric. Martin and spiders and overall something-happened-to-Jon. only jonmartin thing you'll ever see me endorse on here.
Too Close I cannot See by A_Madness_of_Magpies. Amnesiac!Jonah has a bad time. (also power-reversal jonelias. if you even care)
[this one i still haven't read but it sounds. delicious] effusive, hyaline, mychorrizal by Stacicity. A young Jonah loses himself to the corruption apparently. CANNOT wait to read it but also. the horrors.
a heavenly madness by roundthedecay. this has set the standards for me SO impossibly high. CLASSIC fic of the jonelias tag, I love it sososo much ('They meet in a kiss and Jon thinks he’d let Jonah have everything.' you will always be FAMOUS to me)
one upon a dream by indelibleangel. another timeless classic. jonah appears to jon in his dreams while he's in a coma. they talk a lot. i love this one so much it's so dear to me ('elias always says jon's name like he's making it his own'...)
The Arrangement by AmunetMana. HEARTBREAKING fic series about crossdressing and choices and asexual jonah magnus which is important TO ME. but in general sososo good and made me shed half a tear by the end.
Pinned in vain desire by statuscrow. compulsory (ah) compulsion kink jonelias fic, which admittedly works very well with me for absolutely unknown and unrelated reasons. I recommend everything this author has on jonelias in general and in particular Ritual Misery (alternative s5) and Skeptic (jon finds gertrude's tape at the beginning of s1, he doesn't believe a word of it)
For unclear reasons by karuvapatta. Jonah is in the Panopticon thinking about Jon. Beholding's a cat somehow.
Beyond Pain and Death and Fear by linndechir. Alternate s5, Jon gets a speed run corruption arc. Another timeless classic to me.
eudaemonia by murg. the last chapter of this fic... tattooed on my mind (also check 'Not even the Archive' by the same author, won't recommend it because it's jonmartin-centric but it's written so well and uses Derrida beautifully)
You can't outrun your occupation, Jonah by blue_blue_electricblue. beautiful Jonah - Jonelias character study
molt by 3lessdollars. POETIC, but also Jonah has a terrible time all the way through it
Jonelias fluff (with more or less explicit evil!Jon):
And in the distance, thunder by WhyNotFly. The night before the Watcher's Crown Jon cannot fall asleep. Jonah helps.
And He'll Tell Me All About It Over There by blue_blue_electricblue. Jonah and Jon have a debate on singing (this is soooooo soft. <3)
if you were blind, you would not be guilty by CyberSearcher. Jon and Jonah having a wonderful time in the apocalypse
You asked for my counsel by CyberSearcher. Tim has an interview with the Head of the Magnus Institute. The Archivist is also there. Things get weird real fast.
The Meowgnus Pawchives by SixofOne. Jon lets a cat into the institute. Jonah does NOT like the cat. The cat does NOT like Jonah. One of the funniest things I've ever read.
Reveries by AmunetMana. Jon as a reincarnation of Jonathan Fanshawe. Jonah is very normal about this.
Signing away one's soul by PossiblyHuman. Jonah is VERY insistent Fanshawe signs a contract with the Institute.
our hunger appeased by bluebismuth. flesh!fanshawe and his reconnecting with jonah decades down the line
a poison that never stung by a-m. probably the best melanie character study out there.
One Hundred Thousand Fireflies by shutterbird. I don't even ship Elias/Gertrude. this made me feel shrimp emotions
If I loved you less by indelibleangel. crazy gertrude/emma fic.
Unfinished fics (still mourning them not continuing years down the line)
A little game of cat and mouse by Paptato. Timetravel fic with Jon going back to kill Jonah in xix century. we all know this one i think.
Hey Alice, where's your wonderland? by Insomnia_Productions. fake dating jonelias fic that gets up until the end of s1. love this one to bits too <3