#tjsonb

Things have been going pretty well lately. I scored a job at both the 76 market by the sober living I live at and also working at events around Las Vegas for PATG, parking and traffic.

I started work at one of the places today and I start at the other place this friday at Allegiant Stadium. I don't really follow sports but I do support UNLV. Woohoo, go... rebels? lol

I'm coming up on 5 months sober for any of you who give a damn about progress. I've come a long way from when I was down in the dirt drinking booze, smoking weed and doping myself up with methamphetamines.

I'm not here to be perfect. I'm here because I've got people to live for. Family, friends, associates, YOU ALL wherever you may be. I can't find you if you don't reach out, unless, well, I reach out first. That's a lot of reaching out for one little old me don't you think? Make it a little easier.

I'm pretty close to scoring a job I would absolutely love to have... or at least that's what I think, at an adult superstore ;) I just think it would be kind of fun to see that side of people, and omg if I ever saw anyone I wouldn't expect to come there go in there while I'm working, I wouldn't only practically die of laughter, I'd recommend some FREAKY freaky ass sh*t. Plus, it'd bust me out of my shell a little bit... probably a lot a bit. The only thing keeping me from working there right now now is that they want me to work on Sunday, and with church and all, I don't think I'm going to give that up for anything. Not in a year. Not in a week. Not in a century. Never even to the ever.

I've got to wake up early tomorrow so I can't be up online ALL the night long but I really hope someone reaches out at some point. This place we call Tumblr is so important to me. I'd hate to see something as minute as "lack of social interaction" be a thing to pull me away from it.

Aim:

1: If I reblog something, it's because I believe its something you all need, or I thought it was funny enough to make someone else laugh at or make use of.

2. If I like a post, then I'm trying to center whatever message or art is being portrayed upon myself.

3. If I post something original, pay attention... closely...

CLOSER

NO, CLOSER.

Lol I'm only kidding... or so I say.

It's up to you how much you want to pay attention. I'm not here to try and be interesting for ANYBODY else. I'm just here to get through to somebody.

I like knowing there's things I have in common or that others can remind me that I'm even INTERESTED in.

I hope you know, if you're actually someone that I know IRL, I supremely respect the BALLS you have to check up on me in this way. Because let me tell you something... : YOU'RE IN THE RIGHT PLACE IF YOU WANT TO GET TO KNOW ME. LIKE HOW I ACTUALLY feel. What I'm going through mentally. Heartfelt fully unfiltered self that I just CANNOT leak IRL society because, well, shit.. I wouldn't be socially accepted.

and THAT, is how it is, this is what it is.

So enjoy the larger sense of the real me.

The side of me you wish you could see.

The very essence of my personality that's only found if you truly look.

I may seem like an open book in person, but that's because I'm showing you what I want you to see. The real me has some SERIOUS self control.

I respect. I trust. I grow.

Water me, and I share my water with you.

Take root in me, because that's what I'd do for you.

P.s. I like magic, a freaking lot. Nothing that God wouldn't approve of though. I expect that I'll die someday and I'm ready to see anyone die, although... I don't look forward to it.

Sober 2024 For Good.

ENJOY.

I especially like how you date the time periods.

How do you find your pics?

thank you! ◟ʕ´∀`ʔ◞

i’ve found all the photos so far on flickr. the sources are linked in the captions (although you may need a flickr account to view some of them)