#tink!reader

au pairing: “ gadget “ aka loser!matt & “ fidget “ aka academic weapon!reader

every journal entry has a stamp in the right corner. as a little kid she watched her grandpa collect novelty stamps, rare stamps, and stamps he found interesting.

journal entry 4 [ paired with the mount fuji stamp in the top left corner of the second pic ]

“ i don’t even know where to begin. it is as if every little thing reminds me of gadget, i mean matt. as much as i miss him, i cannot let go of the fact that he kept so much from me, including how he felt smothered and pressured by me. i wish he would’ve come to me instead of causing a fight then proceeding to walk out, get drunk, and spend time with his ex-girlfriend. it hurts & i feel lost. “

journal 0.02/0.05: GADGET’S JOURNAL

au pairing: “ gadget “ aka loser!matt & “ fidget “ aka academic weapon!reader

journal entry 2

after spending so much time with fidget, it feels weird to not have her in my space. it’s weird that she’s not taking up any of the spaces in my apartment, whether it’s her stamp collection or her little stupid fuckin’ green figurines watching me from every tiny corner. i miss her. and i know i fucked up, i just don’t know how the hell i’m supposed to fix this and give her the space she needs. i hope that she knows i regret everything i said that night, i didn’t mean any of it. and i hope she knows that i regret hanging out with my ex, most of all. i never wanna see that look of hurt on fidget’s face again. i don’t know what i’m supposed to do with these stickers that she gave me because she said they reminded her of me, they hurt to look at.

journal 0.03/0.05: DARLIN’S JOURNAL

au pairing: ex situationship!matt & “ darlin “ aka ex situationship!reader

journal entry 6

jesus fucking christ, i fucked up LOL. after the whole shitshow at the bar last night…i ended up at matt’s…AGAIN. i don’t know why i keep doing this to myself, i promised lindsey, i’d stop once i finally got over him and then she went and slept with him. i thought that if i kept up this whole “unbothered and confident party girl who doesn’t catch feelings” person, id finally start to believe that i don’t feel the way i do about matt, but he makes it so hard when he pulls the shit he does. the constant “i don’t care who you sleep with” one second and then the “why did you block me? why are you ending this shit? i miss you” the next is fucking with my head. it makes this whole fake it til you make it shit hard to keep up with. and how the fuck am i supposed to face jayden after he stepped in between matt and i during our fight last night?

journal 0.04/0.05: SILVER’S JOURNAL

au pairing: single dad!chris & “ silver “ aka former best friend!reader.

journal entry ???

i thought i saw chris today, or at least someone that looked like him, maybe nick or matt, outside the diner we used to go to. but then i remembered he doesn’t visit boston much anymore, and it kind of hurt to think about. i keep wondering why he was so willing to just….leave? i thought that maybe, just maybe, i meant more or that he’d put up a fight, but i guess life in LA is too good to pass up. i check on matt and nick sometimes, im glad to see that they come back to boston frequently, maybe they haven’t changed too much. i keep wanting to reach out, to see how they’re doing without making it seem like i’m wondering about chris. but then i remember that if they still wanted to keep in touch, that they’d reach out. also i hooked up with my ex the other night because i missed chris so fucking much, now she won’t leave me alone. and i’m pretty sure she stole my vape…that thing cost sixty something fucking dollars. fuck.

journal 0.05/0.05: CHRIS’ JOURNAL

au pairing: single dad!chris & “ silver “ aka former best friend!reader

journal entry 1

i don’t know why the fuck my mom recommended this shit but whatever. maybe he’ll help. i saw silver outside of george’s kitchen last night, and fuck, it hurt. i don’t know if she recognized me, maybe she did and doesn’t care much anymore, or maybe she didn’t and went on about her day. i think about texting her every day and i have since the day we ended whatever was happening between us. i hate that we’re not even in the same orbit anymore. it fucking sucks, she was my best friend, my everything yknow? i don’t know how she’d react to olivia though. oh my god olivia’s starting to babble more and its the cutest thing in the world. i hope that i can be a good enough father to her, she’s been through so much already, i don’t want to cause her anymore grief. god i wish silver was in my life, she’d help me figure out what to do.