Okay so just to recap on everything, I have a friend that for now we’ll name turtle. I had shown them my drawing of Sprout called Astro “Leestro” and Turtle, being the curious son of a gun they are, REALLY wanted to know what Lee meant

Push comes to shove, they found out by searching up “Lee tumblr” because my dumbass gave them small hints since deep down I KINDA wanted them to know but still wasn’t sure caused ive never openly admitted this to someone irl. However, if it would’ve been any other person than Turtle then no fucking way, Turtle is just a very open and trust worthy person that I knew they wouldn’t totally hate my guts for liking this. ADDITIONALLY, they’re like the person who engages in tword fights on a daily so yeah.

So yes, Turtle DID find out and I had a small talk with them to further explain that this whole tword thing was just a silly affectionate thing I liked but was really embarrassing and all that. They understood and accepted the fact that this was a secret and never told anyone. They also offered to tword me if I really wanted it…

AND THAT BRINGS US TO PRESENT DAY.

After that whole blessing of a mess, I had kept thinking about it day after day after day because who wouldn’t?? I mean one of your close friends are just completely fine in something you’ve been obsessed with and embarrassed about ever since you were a kid, and now you can FINALLY share that with someone irl???? I got real lucky. The only thing is that no matter what, it’s still the most embarrassing thing to me and despite Turtle saying I could ask anytime….I didn’t. This bullshit brought me into a growing lee mood that has been EATING AT ME FOR TWO WEEKS.

There was multiple occasions where I was gonna ask but everytime I tried I either took back what I was going to say cause I got too flustered, it wasn’t a good moment, or we were just busy. And I also even tried to provoke MULTIPLE TIMES but my friend is too slow to understand that. So I literally picked dying on the inside over telling them. What made it all the more worse is remember when I say they do a lot of tword fights? Yeah no, I’m not kidding. It’s literally every single day that they’re doing it with one of our other friends which ofc I join along but wasn’t directed towards me which I will explain later why that is.

While seeing this and having my strong lee mood, I’d be better off dead.

I actually sucked all my pride up today and finally told them. I kinda knew they might have already forgotten since they’re really forgetful and I was proven correct when i reminded Turtle about the whole “Tword thing” and I needed to do some quick explaining again. Then, I told them how I have been in a lee mood and all that which once I explained to their really small brain it immediately clicked. Now let me show you guys proof…

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Yeah, I didn’t know how to respond to this either.

But I knew that I had to push my pride and flusteredness to the side and actually tell what I wanted for once. Being a brat had to wait another time.

I did say yes (not directly but they knew what I meant) and I continued to explain so and so to them since they’re started asking questions. Turns out they mostly identify as a Ler or Ler-leaning because they like twording others for the fun of it. Now I have promised them I’d give them my account so…um…I did. They were surprised on how much community this shit had but said that it was really cute. They also found out the stupid nickname that I’m called here (Leebow) and have been calling me that. I’m not the most enlightened but whatever(/silly). And they also told me to say hi for them. They say hello to all of you.

And lastly, lemme just…

Yeah um so guys I think I need more of your prayers because idk whether to be extremely excited or shitting my pants…

I’M SO WORRIED. BECAUSE YES, I’VE BEEN WAITING FOR SOMETHING LIKE THIS LITERALLY MY WHOLE LIFE BUT WHAT IF SOMETHING GOES WRONG😭😭 I’ve stated this before, I’m not the twordish person out there but the spots where I am twordish can kill me. BUT I HAVE WEIRD TWORDISH SPOTS. It’s my neck and ears, which people don’t commonly tword cause it’s like- idk hard I guess??? Because bro Turtle does so many head nuzzles on those places where it takes everything in me to keep my cool. Lastly, my knees and back. Those are my most twordish places that I know of and THEY’RE JUST HARD PLACES TO TWORD AND I HATE IT. SO WHAT IF IM AWKWARD AND AKAJSBSJJSBDJSN

Anyways, I have to think about this for theee days until Monday comes. I’m going to die.