#throwback 2

young owies` crispcrib

waxahatchee - bathtub 

- So it's Christmas day and I'm opening my presents and for some reason my parents are making me open my presents in a particular order. They saved the best gift for last. I opened it and at first I saw Big Time Rush Season 1 Volume 1 so I'm all happy. I look back into the box and my mom had made a shirt with a picture from the first time I met them and I start bawling. But apparently there's still more in the box and I'm trying to read it but my brain isn't processing it so I kept asking what it was. It was clearly like that first note I'd gotten and it was telling me I was going to meet Big Time Rush again for their Better With U Tour 2012 and I was going to get to see their sound check and sit within the first ten rows. After a minute or two I finally got it and I'm crying and crying and I ran over to my mom and I hugged her and I guess I was going with my friend who also "likes Big Time Rush" and my mom basically said, "I told you you'd get your hug." Which she did tell me that but I thought it was just to make me feel better. Not because she actually meant it. This time I had to wait two months for the concert. Which wasn't as bad of a wait. Again I made a t-shirt for the concert and it was easier to do but we still stayed up until two in the morning. When I woke up I got ready and I grabbed a bag and grabbed everything I'd need because I'd be waiting in the car for a couple hours and waiting some more before I actually had to go down to the venue to meet them. So my friend's mom picked up my mom and I and we drove down there and my friend and I are talking the whole time. Eventually we're near the venue but we still had a few hours so we went to a restaurant. My friend and I were really excited so we didn't eat much. After we ate we went in the bathroom and brushed our teeth and went to the bathroom and whatever. So then we left and parked across the street from the place we needed to be and waited until we thought it was a good time to go over and wait in line. Finally we thought we'd waited long enough so I took off the t shirt I was wearing (in the car and I had a tank top on) and I put on the shirt that I was going to wear to meet them and then we walked over and waited. And it was really cold so my mom and whatever kept asking if I needed a sweatshirt and if I wanted to go to the car and grab the one I had. But I kept telling them no because I said that I didn't mind it for a little while. It took about an hour and fifteen minutes and finally the guides to the show told us what was going on and they scanned some stuff and let us in. We went over to a table to give them some papers get our tickets and our VIP passes and then walk over and ask where we were sitting. Then we had to wait to go to see sound check so we got crowd free merchandise purchase so we bought tour books and Big Time Rush glow sticks and finally they let us in. All of us VIPs sat really close to Big Time Rush and we got to hear them sing acoustic versions of their songs. We heard them sing and people got to ask them questions and some of their questions were really stupid and others we okay. And I don't think I'l ever forget this someone asked if they remembered taking a picture with them and Kendall was all, "Uhhhh. Yeahhhh. Right." It was hilarious. So then they're like, "Okay guys time to take pictures." They called us up by row and my mom and I made sure that we weren't close to the front because of what happened the last time. We're getting closer and closer and I'm doing that heavy breathing thing and crying. I see Kendall as we get closer and I start losing it and trying to calm down. And when it was my turn we asked if we could have two pictures before I went to go take them even though we weren't supposed to but I did anyway. So I went up to Kendall and hugged up, then Carlos, then Logan, then James. Well James asked me how I was again and I tried to tell him great but it didn't come out very loud so he probably didn't hear me. Again. Then, I stood in between Logan and Carlos again to take the first picture and my face is all red and stuff and I'm walking away and they're like, "You get to take another picture!" and Kendall was like, "Come here!" so I ran over to him and I hugged him and my knees were shaking and my heart was pounding and I was on an overload on emotions. So we took the picture and then Kendall looked at me with his beautiful green eyes and he's like, "What's your name" and I'm like looking at him all shocked and stuff because he's so beautiful and perfect and he was talking to me and stuff so I mumbled my name and then Logan's like, "What is it?" and I said it a little louder and I hugged Kendall again and then Logan's like, "You could be the World wide girl" and he sang Worldwide to me he was like, "Worldwide" and I started freaking out and I started walking away and I said hi to Dustin and then this dude was taking a picture of my ticket and asking me where I'm sitting and I'm sitting here thinking that I'm gonna be the Worldwide girl so I start walking away and I'm bawling my eyes out and people are looking at me like I'm crazy and even the security guard told me to calm down and I ignored him and continued walking away and then a little bit away from him I screamed, "Shut up old man!" and then we were standing back where everyone else was waiting and all I could say was, "Oh my god" and "He hugged me three times" and "I can't believe it" and "I'm gonna be the Worldwide girl" so I'm dying and then eventually I went into the bathroom to pee and wipe my face off and then go over to the raffle where people were winning Big Time Rush stuff. And I asked a few times, "Can I win Kendall?" but nooo. I didn't win anything but oh well. Oh and then I took a picture with Stix because he was the guide and he was really nice and then we went over to find our seats and the dude pointed over to a seat and we're staring at him like, "No we're supposed to sit in row six" and he's like no. So we sat a level up. And they weren't bad seats they were the first row of those seats. But that's not where we were supposed to sit and I'm like, "No we're not" and then I got the death stare but then we had no choice but to sit there... So anyway we're waiting and then there's this Big Time Rush blimp that's dropping down notes and think the notes were stuff that the guys were writing. Then the first opening guy comes out and he's okay. The second group was One Direction and at the time I had NO CLUE who they were because as far as I know they weren't really even mainstream yet. But everyone in crowd is going absolutely wild and then when they were done A BUNCH of people started leaving. It made me upset and it was crazy. Like why would you go to a Big Time Rush concert if you weren't even there to see Big Time Rush? So then Big Time Rush finally comes out and I'm crying 95% of the show again and screaming and whatever and a bunch of times the guys kept looking at me. So during Cover Girl the guys came out into the audience and Carlos brought his iPad out and started recording and Logan followed him near where we were sitting and they were all singing Cover Girl and I hopped over seats to get to them and I did the heart thing into Carlos's camera and then Logan came over to me and held my hand and looked me in the eyes and started singing Cover Girl to me one on one and then walked away and then they went back down to the stage after the song was over. When Worldwide came along Logan came into the crowd to pick the girl so what does he do? He picks a girl one row behind me and across and she's resisting him because I don't think she was there to see them. Then she was dud and I start crying. I mean, it was upsetting. When the concert was over I had so many emotions going through me and throughout the car ride I was trying to stay awake because I had my contacts in and I didn't have anywhere to wash my hands and take them out.. I get home and I change and I passed right out. After that we had to wait a few weeks for the pictures to be online and this time instead of buying them you could just save them to the computer so I saved them in all the different sizes and whatever and I kept obsessing over that concert for the longest time. I still obsess over it and I can't watch any of the videos my mom took without crying. Mostly because of the memories and then when my mom's arm would get tired she'd move around a lot or she turned the camera off when the security yelled at her a few times. Oh and I'm upset because she didn't know Logan held my hand during Cover Girl so she didn't record it.. So I have to a find a video that shows me holding his hand or something. There has to be SOMEONE that has that.. But anyway, that's a day I'm always thankful for and I'll always remember and I'm happy I got to experience it and I don't know how many times I've thanked my mom and whatever for taking me but I don't know if I could ever show my gratitude for being able to experience all that I have. I'll never forget it <3

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