#throughtheparadox

hey babe! doing fine but definitely both infuriated and worried with the shitstorm that is happening. hope y'all are safe, too! ❤

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWW I FEEL SO HONOUR TO BE HERE AND MY NAME IS IN BOLD AND I CAN'T EVEN!!! YOU ARE SO SWEET!!!!

Dan:What are the things that keeps you up and pacing at 4AM?

mostly worrying about the future, and what my life will be like

Phil:What’s the craziest thing that has ever happened to you while you were outside?

i cant really think of anything. I guess one thing would be that one of my neighbors ran out side wearing a towel when he was 8ish as he didn't want to take a shower. That was pretty weird

Ladders EP:What’s your favorite song/music genre?

favorite song would probably be May I, by trading yesterday

i  also love listening to christen, light rock, acoustic, not heavy rock, metal, or rap.

Lion:What’s a possession you would never give away no matter what?

Probably my pillow, or my perry the platypus pillow pet lol

Procrastination:Give a reason as to why you think you’re a fail.

I have anxiety about so many things, its insane. 

2009:What’s a memory you cherish the most?

i have a lot of fun memories with my friends, so probably those

2022:What’s something you look forward to in the future?

i want to go into computers, so im excited to learn more about them

Omg sorry i was blogging with my phone and didnt get any notifs :( But ok here we go

17. How would you define yourself, without saying your name or giving a physical description of yourself or your obvious personality?

Oh wow ok. Well, i guess i seem polite and nice and quiet and just all in all like the perfect daughter (bcs of my physical appearance). But i’m a strong believer of people’s rights to own themselves. So.. yeah. I usually do things depends on “rights”. Like, whether i have the rights to do something or not.

19. Do you like having your worldview or opinions challenged or questioned?

Questioned.

20.  Do you believe happiness can exist without sadness?

No. I mean, how could anyone know what “happiness” feel like if they’ve never felt sad? Just like summer wouldn’t feel like a bliss if it’s always summer.

21. Is there a reason for existence?

6. Yes, I do believe so. I think it’s really weird and also mean/not logical (?) (i can’t find the right words) to say things like this, because having issues with loving yourself has nothing to do with being capable to love, it’s not like you’re heartless if you can’t/don’t love yourself.

17. That is hard. Eeh.. Well I am introverted and not really approachable i think, but if I know you I am really hyper and can be annoyingly loud (if i’m happy. If i’m down i will not talk to you). I get annoyed pretty easy but I try to keep it silent and tolerate things (i’m not always good at this, especially with family). I am also content pretty easy, if you let me do my thing i’m happy and i really love the little things in life, and really try to stay positive and surround myself with positivity (also not easy). In short, i am pretty contradictory (? Get your english together girl) at times.

21. I think existing is all about experiencing things, whether it’s positive or negative. All the things you live through and how you respond to them, whatever you choose to do (or not), the people you come across, all of that make up you and your personality, and it’s not something you can pause or shut off.

Stomach: do you feel confident in your body image?

I try to. I am a little underweight but I am getting healthy and my weight doesn’t bother me that much, but I have a few big scars on my back and stomach from surgeries that I’m self concious about.

Thighs: Has anyone ever called you fat or ugly?

Well no, I’m underweight, and I have been since my birth so everybody tries to get me to eat more.As for ugly: I don’t really recall anything, but I had a lot of leg hair before I started shaving it, and I still have quite a lot of arm hair, and people comment on that, sadly

Knees: Have you ever cheated on someone?

Standing by - Pentatonix (wow that’s hard because I just love the whole song)

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Nightwish - End Of All Hope

Favorite lyric:

Angels, they fell first but I’m still hereAlone as they are drawing nearIn heaven my masterpiece will finally be sung