#thoughtsofmymind

Just how much you meant to me, and it wouldn’t hurt.

I wish I could say how much you still mean to me, and it wouldn’t suck.

I wish I could tell you how every time I brush my teeth I think of you, standing beside me, doing the same.

And how when I go to sleep at night, I still reach across the bed to hold you tight.

I wish I could make this all go away.

I wish that everything was different.

I wish this wasn’t so painful.

I hope you know how much you mean to me,

And how I will never not be there,

Whenever you need me.

I’m feeling numb without you

Like I don’t have a heart

I’m going to go back to the hood

Go back to the start

All this pain I feel

Makes me insane so I kneel

Pray to a god that don’t exist

Hope to rise above this shit

Every time I think of you

I see myself turning blue

I’m not breathing I need to breathe

But I just drop down to my knees

I can’t speak I can’t see

What the fuck is wrong with me

I think I snorted to much coke

Because truth is,

I still think about you,

Late at night.

When the stars are out, and the moon is high,

I think about you.

Your laugh,

Your smile,

And gentle touch.

I think about all the ways I wronged you,

And how I would give anything for just one more episode of “The Office” with you.

My tears have dried up,

But my thoughts still wander.

My heart feels separated,

But still attached somehow.

And after everything I’ve done,

It’s hard to even speak to you;

Even though that’s all I want to do.