#thoughts exposed

Feeling ignored, it is too familiar; depression thrives off this kind of ridicule and humiliation. It makes it grow and fester; it only takes one word or phrase. It makes evil thoughts seem right and good thoughts not plausible. It comes in waves to trap; and your body and mind go numb. It scares and you internalize it all; then the nasty voice comes and tells you all the dark things. This is like a wave; it is drowning me. I can do lonely all by myself. These low feelings are awful, I do not want to feel this way. Feel as if I do not fit in anywhere, a burden and not worth of any one's time or presence. Feeling broken and not fixable. Something is not right and not sure how to fix this.