#thoughts are...........connecting

Alexithymia as a symptom of covert depression..

Alexithymia as a symptom of trauma, I presume..

some symptoms of autism equating symptoms of trauma,

personally realizing that youre not being yourself because, for whatever reason, in the past, it has not seemed safe to feel + express feeling, and instead was safe to focus on what is acceptable to feel in that moment, and seeing yourself only from the outside, and cursing yourself both for never measuring up and feeling isolated both from yourself and others,