#thought1

Sometimes in life things don’t always go to plan. There are moments when your head is filled with a hurricane of thoughts. But that all gets lost in translation as soon as you open your mouth.

But what if your tongue is taken away metaphorically speaking. Imagine talking without a tongue - hard right. This metaphor I made up also can show how my freedom has been taken away too. Rights to speech. However, in some places in the world and in some situations talking is a no.

I found this unfortunate. I always have things to say, whether they come out in proper English is a different matter. Difference is unique right. I am always told being different is a good thing to be. Standing out of the crowd. Difference is great for the most part. When it comes to power and age and backgrounds does different still count.

To clear up what I am saying is that sometimes having the right words to say and saying it in the best way possible isn’t enough. Then you start to question that what’s the point of speaking if that right has been stolen from you.

Why?

Why should my voice be taken, cause someone doesn’t like what I said. Or why should I be stopped because people can’t acknowledge truth.

Which side is at fault? The one who speaks or the one who silences.

Is there even a party to blame?

Alpha

Sahara Mizu sensei..

I've read tons of manga covering all sorts of topics and walks of life. There are many good ones, but few would touch me deeply, like the work of Sahara Mizu sensei. I consider most of her work 'slice of life'. Softly but surely telling the stories of human, probably sound like someone's we know, or maybe they're actually ours. 

I admit I haven't finished her series My Girl, but it's on my list of must-finished mangas. Other than that, I just learn today that she wrote/drew under different pen names for specific genres. I learned today, too, that she was involved with an anime which backgrounds I love so much. When I saw those bgs I thought of her style, but I didn't look up further and today was a pleasant surprise to find out about that. There is a special air around her work, making everything become so clear and soft. That serene feeling clears out all the daily mundane things that I have to deal with (well, it's not that much to deal with anyway, I've led a rather blissful life, or say, being positive is not too bad, heh).

I'm usually an extrovert. i love to laugh, to joke about and to leave a buzz wherever I'm around. but lately, this hasn't been the case. i have realised that i spend 50% of my time online for various reasons, of which some are outside of my control. i do little interactions, face to face, with people I love and who i care about and trust. 

i love to debate, it gives me the chance to challenge my thoughts. but not when there are such a judgmental people out there. people who want to suppress your thoughts. 

this tumblr page is for me to speak unreservedly. to break few rules, starting with punctuating and ending with putting some people back to their seats. 

this page, is for me to rant, laugh, share personal thoughts and most importantly, be myself. the person who i'm.  

it's my way to get over the setbacks i have created for myself, as a result of people who i have given to much attention in my life.