āLove might be blinding, but fear opens your eyes wideā
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Iām doubtful Iāll be able to update #thomfic by June (when more summer classes start) but I had to let you know that these next two chapters symbolize the end of THOM Part I!
Thank you so much for beginning this journey with me. Iām so grateful and excited.
Update of This Heart of Mine, sequel to Eyes Wide Open All the Time, a Free! AU (MakoHaru + SouRin)
Chapter Two: Wheel of Fortune
Makoto POV, 5k+
Someone loves me. Thatās the thought that carries him through his most grueling days. Someone gorgeous, brave and heartfelt married him, sacrificed for him, watches over him and isnāt mean about the ridiculousness of Makoto being nervous for the first day of school.
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So very excited to share this! Itās a playlist for my upcoming Free! fic, This Heart of Mine, the rewritten sequel to Eyes Wide Open All the Time.
You can listen to the playlist on YouTube; this list simply helps define who or what a song represents to me. This list also includes some lyrics that you may want to pay special attention to. I recommend reading the lyrics by themselves before listening to the playlist.
Mind you - some of these lyrics only act as symbolism. Some mean more. Some songs have connections. Some donāt. ;) *go girl give us nothing*
List below!Ā
Ā THIS HEART OF MINE: PLAYLIST GUIDEĀ
Theme: Bring Me The Horizon feat. Halsey - In The Dark (MTLT / amo version)
Oh so tall, it broke the fourth wall
Guess our fairytale had a few plot holes
Donāt you know youāve lost control
ā³Ā Honorable Mentions:
ā§ grandson - Bury Me Facedown
When I go into the ground
I wonāt go quietly
Iām bringing my crown
I wonāt get tired
Set the town on fire
Thinking that theyāve won
Itās only just begunĀ
ā§ Lorde - Everybody Wants to Rule the World
ā§ Ry X - YaYaYa
ā§ Rihanna - Goodnight Gotham
CHARACTERS
⦠Haruka
ā§ WDL - Monster vs Angel
Got my own monster
Nobody but meĀ
Got my own angelĀ
I would never call him enemy
Heās the good god I needĀ
But both of the sides
Fight for meĀ
ā§ Mumford and Sons - Broken Crown
Iāll never be your chosen one
In this twilightĀ
How dare you speak of grace
But in this twilight
Our choices seal our fate
Iāll crawl on my belly till the sun goes down
Iāll never wear your broken crownĀ
ā§ Lia Marie Johnson - DNA
Dark as midnight
6 Pack Coors Light
You donāt look the same
Past my bedtime
Blue and red lights come take you away
I wonāt be like you
Fighting back, Iām fighting back the truth
Eyes like yours
Canāt look away
But you canāt stop DNAĀ
ā§ Cat Power - Sea of Love
Come with me, my love
To the sea, the sea of love
ā§ Al Green - Love and Happiness (side note: this if my favorite song of all time)
Love and happiness
Something that can make you do wrong
And make you do rightĀ
⦠Makoto
ā§ The Oh Hellos - Soldier, Poet, King
There will come a soldier
Who carries a mighty sword
He will tear your city down
Oh ley, oh lei, oh lord
ā§ Labrynth - Still Donāt Know My Name
I took your heart
I did things to you only lovers would only do in the dark
I made you a god
Priests, popes and preachers would tell me I did wrong
ā§ The Civil Wars - Devilās Backbone
Donāt care if heās guilty
Donāt care if heās not
Heās good and heās bad and heās all that I got
Oh lord, Iām begging you, please
Donāt take that sinner from meĀ
ā§ Sleeping At Last - Make You Feel My Love (Cover)
I could make you happy
Make your dreams come true
Thereās nothing that I wouldnāt do
Go to ends of the earth for you
To make you feel my loveĀ
ā¦Ā Sousuke
ā§ Angel Haze - Detox
You dance in a cage with some rats in it
Iām about chemistry, you just react to me
God might turn us to ash, baby
I might just taste your last stars tonightĀ
We were gods in a world that did nothing but doubt us
But fuck it, I got us, from the dirt with the flowers
Put in work in the shower
ā§ Kaleo - No GoodĀ
You better start runninā
When you hear the man coming
It wonāt do you no good
Kiss your baby goodbye
Come on love, itās all right
Heaven knows they wanna break you apartĀ
ā§ The Oh Hellos - The Lament of Eustice Scrubb
Brother, forgive me
We both know Iām the one to blame
When I touched the water
They told me I could be set free
⦠Rin
ā§ Halsey - Young God (Lullaby / Music Box Intro, Live from Webster Hall)
Running, running, running
And weāll be running, running, running again
ā§ SZA - Good Days
Tell me Iām not my fears, my limitations
Iāll disappear
I gotta keep from losing the rest of me
Chasing a fountain of youth thatās in the present
Iāll await my armored fate with a smile
Still wanna try, I still believe in good days
ā§ Lola Blanc - Angry Too
Does it get your blood boiling? Does it make you see red?
Cause it gets my blood boiling
It would eat you like poison if you knew what I knew
I donāt wanna drink the venom they made me
I donāt wanna be controlled by the past
But boy, if you were me
Could you really blame me?Ā
ā§ Kendrick Lamar - u
And if this bottle could talk:
I cry myself to sleep, everything is your fault
Because you shook as you knew confinement was needed
I know your secrets
Donāt let me tell them to worldĀ
About the shit you thinkingĀ
And the time that you -
IāmĀ ābout to hurlĀ
Iām fucked up
But I aināt as fucked up as you
ā§ Halsey - More
Wooden floors, little feet
Flower bud, concrete
A little screen, a photograph
Mine to take
I still believe it wonāt be like before
Iāve loved you for all of my life
⦠Nao
ā§ Johnny Hollow - Worse Things
Anger grew like ecstasy
And Leda threw the swan on me
There are worse things, perverse things
You should answer when the phone rings
There are worse things I could do
ā§ Young Heretics - Bones of a Rabbit
You play with wolves
But you sleep with the bones of the rabbitĀ
You have conqueredĀ cities
And torched the mighty sea
You may keep yourself afloat
But you cannot outswim meĀ
ā§ Phantogram - Black Out Days (Future Islands Remix)
Hide the sunĀ
I will keep your face out of my mindĀ
Iām hearing voices all the time
And theyāre not mineĀ
Haunting my mind
ā¦Ā Natsuya
ā§ Gang of Youths - Achilles, Come Down
Remember your virtueĀ
Redemption lies plainly in the truth
Where you go, Iām going
When you jump, Iām jumping
There is no me without youĀ
Today of all days
See how the most dangerous thing is love
ā§ Florence + The Machine - Cosmic Love
The stars, the moon
They have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
ā¦Ā Ikuya
ā§ Penelope Scott - Cigarette Ahegao
So like, I guess I call it the sophomore slump
Always crying and always drunk
A few dead, more gone, the rest well on their way
Thanks! I hate it
Everyone that I love is stuck
Because this, that, the other, and the state fucked up
We covered it in a class that Iām about to failĀ
ā§ 100 gecs, Laura Les, Dylan Brady - Money Machine
Tell me what's the deal, I've been trying to go to bed
I've been up for days, I've been trying to get ahead
Said it all before, and I'll say it once again
I'm better off alone
ā§ Halsey - ClementineĀ
Through a breakdown or a blackout
Would you make out with me
Cause I donāt need anyone
I just need everyone and then some
⦠Hiyori
ā§ Florence + The Machine - Seven Devils
Holy water cannot help you now
A thousand armies couldnāt keep me out
I donāt want your money
I donāt want your crown
See Iāve come to burn your kingdom down
ā§ Michael Buble - Feeling Good (Cover)
Itās a new life for me
This old world is a new world
And a bold world for me
Freedom is mine
And I know how I feel
Iām feeling good
⦠Asahi
ā§ Sam Henshaw - Broke
If I wasnāt broke
Would you spend more time with me
Like you said youād do
Tell me what Iām supposed to do
Cause the only thing I need
Is to be loved by youĀ
ā§ Mikky Ekko - Smile
Smile, the worst is yet to come
Weāll be lucky if we ever see the sun
⦠Aki
ā§ Aly & AJ - Church
I did bad things, canāt you see it on my face?
I get caught in every lie
I need redemption for sins I canāt mention
For all the things I canāt reverse
For all the places where it hurts
ā§ ZZ Ward - Ghost
Here the devil call out my name
Iāve broken promises, burning flame
God knows, darling
God knows I gave
Now the truth cuts like a knife
ā¦Ā Nii
ā§ Of Mice and Men - My UnderstandingsĀ
Keep in mind that Iām a sore eye
With blurry visionĀ
ā§ Neoni - Outlaw
They say that Iām wanted
Hear the whispers in the street
You better start running
Cause nothing scares meĀ
Faster, faster
Youāre the one Iām afterĀ
You built a fortress
But Iāll never kiss the ring
Iām my own king
⦠Gou
ā§ Melanie Martinez - Lunchbox Friends
We can be friends if you wanna be
But only till the clock hits three
I donāt want no lunchbox friends, no
I want someone that binds the ends, no
Come to my house, letās die together
Friendship that will last forever
ā§ Maroon 5 - Come to the Water
Come away little light
Come away to the darkness
Away from the life that you always knew
Come away little lamb
Come away to the water
To the arms that are waiting only for you
⦠Isuzu
ā§ Jessie Reyez - NO ONEāS IN THE ROOMĀ
Spent my whole life being graded, being told Iām not enough
Being told go find the one and sit and wait for death to come
I donāt want to
I need to talk to God
Thereās things I just donāt understand
Like who am I when no oneās in the room
EMI - Bad Friends
Yeah, I got some bad friends
No you cannot have them
If you wanna talk to themĀ
You talk to me, yeah
We donāt fuck around with just anybody, yeah
⦠Takuya
ā§ Imagine Dragons - Ready, Aim, Fire
Off in the distance, there is resistance
Bubbling up and festering
Here in the casing
Shaking and pacing
This is the tunnelās light
Blood in the writing, stuck in the fighting
Look through the rifleās sight
ā§ Billie Eilish - you should see me in a crown (acapella)
Bite my tongue
Bide my time
Wait till the world is mine, ocean eyes
Count my cards
Watch them fallĀ
Blood on a marble wall
You should see me in a crown
Iām gonna run this nothing town
Watch me makeĀ āem bow
One by one
ā¦Ā Kinjou
ā§ Urban Country - Knife and Stone
Tell me, have you ever seen a mirror
Mirror in the middle of the forest
Just waiting for the rain or the crown
Iāve been up for thirty days
Someone point to lost and found
Aināt no blood in the temple
Just a knife and stone
⦠Mikhail
ā§ Elsie Lovelock - Friends on the Other Side (Cover)
The cards, the cards
The cards will tell
The past, the present, and the future as well
I got voodoo, I got hoodoo
I got things I aināt even tried
And I got friends on the other side
I hope youāre satisfied, but if you aināt
Donāt blame me
You can blame my friends on the other side
ā¦Ā Ryuuji
ā§ elbow - Grounds for Divorce
Iāve been working on a cocktail
Called Grounds for Divorce
Down comes him on sticks but then he kicks like a horse
There's a hole in my neighborhood
Down which of late I cannot help but fall
ā§ Mumford and Sons - The Enemy
I am not the enemy
It isnāt me, the enemy
I came and I was nothing
So why did you choose to lean on
A man you knew was falling?
⦠Nadia
ā§ Halsey - Castle (Orchestral Version)
They wanna make me their queenĀ
Thereās an old manĀ
Sitting on the throneĀ
Saying I should probably keep my pretty mouth shut
Iām headed straight for the castle
THEMES: GROUPS
ā¦Ā FREEBIRD
ā§ Kaleo - Way Down We Go
Oh father, tell me
Do we get what we deserve
They will run you down
Down till you fall
They will run you down
Down till you crawl
Till you canāt crawl no more
And way down we go
⦠ROUGH RABBIT
ā§Ā Imagine Dragons - Who We Are
Up on the mountain
Down in the king's denĀ
It's who we are
Doesn't matter if we've gone too far
Doesn't matter if it's not okay
Doesn't matter if it's not our day
⦠DIAMONDBACK
ā§ Florence + The Machine - Bedroom Hymns
This is good a place to fall as any
Weāll build our alter hereĀ
In the wine, the women, the bedroom hymns
Such selfish prayers, I canāt get enough
Iām not here looking for absolution
Because Iāve found myself an old solution
ā¦Ā HONEYBLADE
ā§ Megan Thee Stallion and Normani - Diamonds
I love me this much
My pear-shape all dripped up
He want me to be a little more lady-like?
Come through with my girls and beat your ass on ladies night
⦠BLOODHOUNDS
ā§ Angel Haze - The Wolves
Nothing left out there for meĀ
I left my fucking heart out at the sea
This shit sounds like the danger zoneĀ
Iām the big bad wolfĀ
Gonna take the throneĀ
ā¦Ā NatsuyaĀ + Nao
ā§ Cosmo Sheldrake - The Moss
But have you heard the story
Of the rabbit in the moon?
Halsey - Colors
Your little brother never tells you
But he loves you so
I hope you make it to the day youāre 28 years oldĀ
⦠Hiyori + Ikuya
ā§ Elvis Drew - Where Are You
Ā I been trying to figure out where you from
Is it the moon? Is it earth?
Is it this place, where nothing is worse?Ā
Nothing can compare to the life we had
My dear just grab my hand and let me take you
To my wonderland
ā§ Swae Lee - Sunflower
Some things you just canāt refuse
Iām not tryna lose
⦠Isuzu + Gou
ā§ Snow Patrol - The Golden Floor
Iām a peasant in your princess arms
Penniless with only charm