Reminder to myself to come back and write out a full diary post about today. Journaling experiences is good.
Today was a day I dreamed about in more than one way (good feelings and bad feelings.)
I've been wanting to take myself out to enjoy myself (I did).
I've also had nightmares about my brother relapsing and getting myself pulled into traumatic feelings of my past. Ever since I moved back home I've tried keeping my mind off it. My brain always divided into two: hell never do that again or it's bound to happen again.
And then I got home from the cinema to find my brother relapsed .... he was harassing his friends and holding them hostage with his rage and emotions.
My body is still on edge and shaky. Even though it's been a few hours. I'm skipping class tonight but I'm proud of myself for how I managed today.
