#thisisntarelationshipthough

I feel like this happens every weekend. I keep waiting on that text that I will never get and keep being hopeful for something that isn’t going to happen anyways. You’d think that I would have learned by now to just stop chasing after people who don’t like me but the thought of being maybe appreciated again gives me a glint of hope. The awful thing about people is that they use you and toss you aside when they get bored with you like you are some material object. I never thought I’d be one of those people. 

I know that I do not need someone else to make me feel validated/happy but I have forgotten how it feels to be happy, honestly. I want to be in an actual relationship and I want to feel appreciated but I am just wasting my time right now. He’s not going to text you, Katie because he doesn’t care. You don’t matter. How hard is this for me to understand. I think that I am a very smart person but somehow I cannot comprehend this. 

Also, I am sorry for feeling the need to vent my frustration on Tumblr. My blog is light and happy but sometimes I just want/need to rant (like I am doing now). 

Maybe not being home with my family aka the only people who actually care/love me for Easter has something to do with it as well.