#thisiscooliguess

I feel like I'm constantly fighting myself and lying to myself. I'm totally in denial and its literally the fucking worst. I just want to scream and cry and just break down but then i think "whats the point?" its not like anything will change, why waste the time? Why bother anymore? Everything in my life is a brick wall at the moment and I feel like no matter how hard i try, no matter how many sacrifices I make, no matter how much of my self I give it will never be enough and I will never get past this goddamn fucking wall.