For the fanfic ask (This Ain't Love): #1, 3, 4, 5, 6, 9, 11 :D
Wow! A lot of questions, yay! Okay, letās try to be serious v.v
1: What inspired you to write the fic this way? The tons of Abusive!Akashi fanfics out there -.- And I am not joking. I had in my mind to write a story about an abusive relationship since a very good while, Iāve always been more inclined to this kind of fics dealing with sensitive topics because I think sometimes thereās too much simplification of how these things really can be, too much stereotypes, and Iāve always wanted to try to give my sight of it. Akashi mischaracterization gave the start to this all v.v
3: Whatās your favorite line of narration? Mmm, it is still to come, butĀ
āThere was light. A lotand white, it entered the window to reflect briefly on the candid sheets likeon a wedding dress gown, brightening the room up, too much, making it blinding. | Akashi didnāt evennotice. Laying on his left side, on the crumpled mattress and sweated blankets,he stared at his left hand laying on the pillow, palm up and slightly bentfingers, each one a bit more so that he could see every phalanx and wrinkle.ā Ch. 10 ^-^
4: Whatās your favorite line of dialogue? Ugh. Itās difficult when it comes to this kind of fic to find a piece of dialogue that IĀ ālikeā, since most are filled with insults or bad things, but I think I can say I liked Nijimuraās
āTheyāre all walking on eggshells around you. Theyāve always been like that.But Iām not like them, you know, so donāt expect me to be good and put on somefake smile like Momoi or Kise to pretend all the time I donāt know youāreshowering us in lies.ā Ch. 6
5: What part was hardest to write? Iām gonna pass as a sadist, after this, but itās been theĀ āhappyā parts. Every time Akashi was to be serene or calm I got troubles because I was scared he would beĀ āOut Of Characterā as a Rape and Abuse victim. IĀ ānot too badā with abuse scene because Iāve worked on them for years now -my first original story was about a deaf and dumb guy living with an abusive father so I got to try my hand at these scenes a lot- but happy scenes after angst? Theyāre the most difficult part for me.
6: What makes this fic special or different from all your other fics? It deals with a theme thatās quite important to me. Iām not minimizing abuses and rapes on females, but I think the male abuse and rape has been and still is too much ignored. Itās not like they canāt get stuck into situation like these, itās not like theyāre invincible or untouchable. I know a lot of males that are frail and I donāt think any less of them; if anything, I would kick anybodyās ass for them. Also, Akashi is character I feel extremely protective of and I wanted to talk about him in a different way. Also, this story is important because it took me an year to be written (it was it birthday the day before yesterday, yeee!) but a particular year of my life and it allowed me to get to know and get close to a lot of people that now I deem extremely important parts of my life.
9: Were there any alternate versions of this fic? Yes. At first, this story was born as an AoKise with Aomine as a cop finding Kise after years without seeing each Ā other and noticing bruises on his arms. Then I realized it wasnāt believable because Kise was far too strong-minded to allow Haizaki to hurt him that way (and also there were already tons of stories like that). I found out two thousands stories of abuse had Akashi as an abuser and wentĀ āYou think that? Well, then!ā and here we are.
11: What do you like best about this fic? It made me grew, as a writer. I could feel my style changing chapter by chapter and Iām seeing writing its sequel that I shifted a lot from convoluted to concise, but keeping my usual attention to gesture and floral metaphors. I think I like this style better than how I was before and Iām glad.
Thank you very much for asking, really! :D
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