People kept saying It’s only a matter of time so I persevered in the hope they weren’t lying. At the same time beginning to think I might’ve been lying to myself. Wasting everyone’s time with fantasies of this career I couldn’t have. The person I could never be. There was just so much rejection and not enough of me. So I got afraid. And I lost my nerve —

Let me guess, some man who talks. A lot. He talks so much that he thinks he believes in something. And really, he just wants to fuck who he wants to fuck. I’ve seen it enough. I’m not even mad about it anymore.