For profit, most treat it like a hotel and act as if they could treat themselves from googling or WebMD. But won’t admit that they messed up somewhere and won’t take responsibility for their actions that got them sent to there in the first place.

My mind is mentally numb and im starting to turn into a recluse. Being around people isn’t fun anymore and the burn out is settling in. It’s crazy to think how many people do this kind of career (Bedside Care) for 20-30+ years.

You can say I’m being pushed to the edge to where I’m young enough to take that leap of faith just to see if I can actually make it. Because in my whole entire soul and existence I feel that I’m meant for more and better than good enough. But yet I feel stagnant with my shit. Weird? Or am I one of the many that feel this way, day in and day out. The steps I’m making to get out of this are incremental but not quick enough.

The whole idea came out of the sudden. I Haven't planned for it, or thought of it even. To start over with a new blog, is nice, yet a stressful experience, after I hadn't post any blogs since 2011.

I was then still in Kuwait, struggling with brothers and sisters. To make a change in our society for the Trans* community over there.

At the end of that year, I had a plans regarding me completing my transition. I stopped blogging, got busy and active in different other ways.

After a year from then, had to deactivate my blog and Facebook Trans* activities page. And that was due to security reasons, I will mention that later on in another blog.

About the title of my blog, came all of the sudden as well. The whole thing came like a sparkle! Wich I love appreciate. Back to the title Trans-Parency, I hope tht it is obvious. Trans* + Transparency, tells so much about me. As a trans* and transparent, in another words, an open book as I say always about myself.