Unfamiliar feelings i need to learn how to handle.

Turning 27, not only I am growing old, so is everyone else— my parents, our pets, our house, my friends. Time will come and everyone will outgrow something, even I, to the things i refuse to let go off.

I'm in that part of my life where I feel like I don't have anyone to lean to anymore...my best friends found their soulmate...The one I claim to be my soulmate has found their very own home and so now i am starting to notice, friends I wait for in our usual space no longer comes.

I feel lonely, confused, and somewhat angry. It's like they're not taking me with them in life and it's so tiring to be the one to keep reaching out. No one is inviting anymore. No one is lending their shoulders anymore. No one has the time to lend...and it's so fucking sad, to be in this point of adulthood...

And so i pray to God, that I too can find a home where I can lean on and let unnecessary feelings out without asking for permission to, without worrying if i am too much of a bother.