#thinkandspeak

I feel like everyone here is fucking miserable and I don't know what to do anymore.

You feel like a midnight walk on a playground and watching smoke disappear behind stars.

Someday someone will dedicate a beautiful song to me.

It's so strange looking back at old conversations. A person who once told me he thought of me when looking at the stars, called me perfect, and traced letters on my back until I fell asleep now hasn't spoken to me for months. A person that once felt so strongly about listening to my problems now doesnt even know that were living 10 minutes from each other. A person who I caught staring and grinning at me at a party now can't even tell me what I did wrong. Maybe its because it's late but I just want clarity.

I was talking about my ex boyfriend with my coworkers today. And I came to the conclusion that I think I made a mistake. But I don't really know. At this point I've already accepted lonliness as a lifestyle, which I think few people do, and I suppose I should embrace that.

More than anything, I miss walking into his house without knocking and greeting his parents. Giving his brother a hard time. Laying on the couch like I lived there. I miss being comfortable in a place that wasn't mine.

Hearing insults from drunk people hurts the most

I dont need a boyfriend. I need someone to help me eat Mac and Cheese at 1 am and sleep with me afterwards.