#thia thoughts

important thia knowledge is the fact that she really does not think of herself as having much agency around what happens in her life. it's like. Things Happen To Her. and she just has to deal with it. but she... does have agency -- hell, that's how she got her job -- it just never seems to apply to her personal life. she'll stay in a shitty situation for who-knows-how-long because she just accepts it as a part of her life now. she'll not think of events that have. royally screwed her up. as being anything more than just Things That Happened. despite the fact that her job is dealing with these things, these mental things that weigh people down, she's immune to that introspection for herself. so annoying what do you mean you don't understand why you're like this look at the THINGS that HAPPENED TO YOU... idiot

thia's whole deal is that she's basically just a walking dead wife flashback and that causes problems when you're supposed to be a functioning person living for yourself

the greatest thing to happen to sanders md was the realization that there actually WOULD be a character to call cynthia thia and that is rachel. all of a sudden the world makes sense the air is fresh and i am pure... i never pictured myself writing kidfic before and now The Prince exists and is probably my favourite thing i've written for them... like fuck my life i guess? slash pos?

i literally decided to make thia a former alcoholic for no reason in particular. lowkey it has very little effect on the story but it's There. but it's too important To Me for it to not be there. so it's There