C'mon, Karter...Act Three "The Depression"- created another gut wrench, heart twisting chapter with light and beauty making appearances along the way. Every word, every scene, every emotion is present and unapologetic, but told with so much compassion and humanity. Today, it was this line that hit me, "“I’m not stronger than you,” he whispered. “I’m just breaking slower.”"
This line I will be using in my future, because smiles and laughter fool the world. People don't know what goes through the mind of most when their heads hit the pillow.
I love that Roman and Sunny reached for each other and that Roman is so open to talking to someone. I hope Sunny gets there too, because she's drowning.
I didn't know how to label what I was feeling. To be honest, I don't know that I let myself feel too much for too long. I was more like Roman. I kept moving. I'm healed thank God, but I remember getting the diagnosis (forget age when it comes to disease btw- if something feels off, check in) and coming back home with my mom, telling my dad, making calls to friends on the results, and then started making work calls. I never felt God so close as I did when I cried at night when everyone else was sleeping. I read this the other day and it hits so different to me now, because I thought I knew him before, but nope. I do now: "And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” (Matthew 28:20)
If I could do anything differently, a friend asked me if I'd do grief counseling and I said I would, but it was open ended in my head at the time. Your story has me revisiting the idea 🥰 I'm going to go find something warm to drink now (though I'm also thinking of a tea bar for myself too). Only feels right - love my tea 🫖
Take care and thank you for bringing a story like this to light. I know if it's helping me, it's helping someone else too ❤️
Wow, this really just stopped me in my tracks, like sis I've read it multiple times. Thank you so much for sharing such a deep and personal part of your journey. That line—“I’m just breaking slower”—means even more to me now knowing how it resonated with you. I’m so moved that Roman and Sunny’s story is reaching you like this.
Your strength, your faith, the way you kept going after your diagnosis—it’s incredible. And I’m so glad you're thinking about grief counseling again. You deserve support, space, and healing in every form. Also yes to warm tea and that tea bar idea, I won't like Sunny doesn't really reflect me in the area of tea, it's not my drink of choice but more my boyfriend who LOVESSS tea, and I made him a little mini tea bar in his dorm🫖✨
I'm talking cute mugs, glass tupperware containers with leaves and the dried fruits, and a press, and he loved it! (and me cause he got me wingstop after lol)
But thank you again—truly. Messages like this remind me why I write. ❤️
