Thinking about 1x & c00lkidd parallels. Thinking about how both have "creators" who are pathetic versions of their past, more selfish selves, and they must live in the shadow of these past versions. Thinking about how they both despise the present versions' fear, how they both probably wish for the past version so there's something more concrete to attach to the struggles they were left with. Thinking about how they rebel by embodying the traits their "creator" discarded- to desperate degrees. Thinking about how both are "neglected" by them, 1x as a mere trashcan for Shedletsky's undesirable traits, and C00lkidd as a child with a busy, mentally unwell father. Thinking about how both wish to be the better version of their creator, but by doing so they tie themselves to their creator in the end. Thinking about how for both of them, all this rage ultimately stems from a horrible self-image they must rationalize as one person, one enemy, or else what do they do? Thinking about how although 1x is a mythical figure: a 4D creation of hatred, often viewed as the killers symbolic leader, who is torn asunder by horrors beyond comprehension and the inherent suffering of her existence; how although C00lkidd is a kid: an unruly, painfully normal kid with juvenile taunts and unrefined attacks, with the mundane struggle of an unwell parent who fails despite their great love; they are somehow so, so similar. Thinking about 007n7 and Shedletsky parallels. Thinking about how both have a stronger past self that torments their every waking moment after their reform. Thinking about how both found salvation through a person, whether a literal vessel or an inspiration to be better, but unwittingly made them take on that burden instead. Thinking about how neither had malicious intentions, only cowardly and selfish ones. Thinking about how both are still avoidant and dishonest about their pasts, that despite their reform, they cause problems, especially in relation to their "creation." Thinking about how 007n7 is the anxious outcast of the group, his mind always elsewhere and his abilities useless to the team, and Shedletsky is a highly respected admin, a sentinel who also fights to uphold team morale, but both, at the end of the day, have commit the great sins of not only their selfish pasts, but being cowardly men. A connection Shedletsky recognizes, but never speaks on. Thinking. Thinking about the characters.
