#thenvs.now

But I almost feel like I looked better then. I know I’m attracted to unhealthy things though but it bothers me. Everyone says I look better now.. I know I wasn’t happy with my self or body then either but when people say I look healthy I think they mean fat.

17 months and 3 weeks clean from everything.

September 2018 135-140 it fluctuates..

Summer of 2014 - Winter of 2018 The first photo was at a cheap trap motel called the westark when I was staying where ever I could and strung out on meth and opiates. I was 20, or about to be. The second is 5 days ago at 17 1/2 months clean at bryans family's over the holidays in texas. 24. There is about 50-60 lb difference in the pictures. I feel so huge now. I'm clean now. I don't smoke cigarettes anymore. I really don't eat healthy lol and I've had a child since then.. But I almost feel like I looked better then. I know I'm attracted to unhealthy things though but it bothers me. Everyone says I look better now.. I know I wasn't happy with my self or body then either but when people say I look healthy I think they mean fat.