#theme:first_time

"Dean coughs out smoke and has to look away into the trees, has to, because when did his baby brother turn into—this? Dean's not blind. He's noticed Sam gradually morphing out of that awkward, scrawny teenager phase, but this—feral woodland creature, wild hair and barefoot, tiniest scrap of fabric covering him like a loincloth, and draped in this otherworldly easy confidence—this is a physical shock"

"The sudden sensation in Dean's chest that he gets way too often when Sam touches him is a little like the weightless feeling he loves at the peak of a backflip; time stops, and all there is is his body, and his brother. The world will tug at him in a moment, drag them back; but for now he's caught suspended in Sam, and it's his favorite place to be."

"In this moment, happy and drowsy and with Jared smiling at him like that, Jensen thinks that this is worth all the doubt and confusion he’s going to feel tomorrow and probably all the days after that. Jared makes everything more complicated, but Jensen’s had a lot of certainty in his life, a lot of absolutes, and at least right now, he feels ready for something different."

“I hate you,” Jensen finally says.

"The way Dean loves makes other people’s attempts seem pale and half-hearted. Maybe it should scare him, Sam thinks sometimes, but it never does. He’s had Dean’s undivided attention all his life, even when there were 2,000 miles between them, and Sam drinks it in now, lets it warm him when the sun goes down and the road grows dark, the spark in Dean’s eyes enough of a beacon for Sam to see where he’s going.

"I'm not all that mysterious."

"Jen, you got your eye on anyone tonight?" he asked, slinging an arm around his friend's neck and nearly tugging Jensen off his stool. Laughing softly along with Cam, Jensen waited to be let go of before fixing a look at Jared.

"Jensen spent twenty-eight years making mistakes, and he's spent the last six months trying not to make any more. Cornered behind the garage at Gerry's birthday party, Jensen thought Jared was going to be the mistake that ruined everything.