#thelightrambles

into the void coming on as i leave my last shift at walmart to go take public transport home. this would be a really funny time to get hit by a train OH and then my mother called. this would be a really funny time to get hit by a train

slept for two more hours than i wanted just to continue a dream where somebody i mostly just view as a really really cool older sibling was holding me while i cried about the future and also opening up to me about their stuff and I was straddling them and their hands were in my hair and massaging my scalp which felt so nice and. we were also kind of dry humping but. not in like a horny way. idk how else to put that it was more just desperation to be closer and to give each other something and god i feel so guilty but it was so nice and i'm so sad and i need to repent and i don't want to go into my 12 hour shifts for the next five days and im not gonna have any time to cook for myself and there's just gonna be so much interaction and i don't want it and college is scary and i wish i could ever be sure of anything in life being the right choice

*record scratch* hey there. you must be wondering how i ended up in this situation. so basically, imagine there's a stupid angry nerd bitch who dropped out of college who wants to yap about how things are shit all the time, a wannabe mommy who wants to make dinner for you and then be forced to give you a nursing handjob, a bored sex doll scrolling through guro smut on her phone while you fuck her with your hand running past the cleaved flesh of her stomach and into her exposed innards and is waiting for you to kill yourself after you cum so that she can finally also cum or go to sleep, and a chuunibyou self-proclaimed suicide devil who swallowed a thesaurus and thinks everything after failing to drown at 14 was a mistake, and an actual mostly nonverbal baby bunny trapped in human form who wants to curl up in your lap and be pet until you die and then die with you. and then there's The Worker. and they're all in a group chat together. screaming. the bunny too, she's mostly screaming cute emotes. and the loudest one gets to make the body say something. where was i going with this. oh yeah. so that'd be pretty funny, right

being tipsy around your family will have you wishing shit like 'i really wish my aunt knew i was a girl so i could lay my head on her shoulder on the ride home like when I was little and it wasn't considered strange because of my gender and i didn't know that growing up to be the happiest version of myself i can be would draw so much hatred out of her and every other member of this household' like some fucking loser like girl come on how weak can you fucking be what do you mean you wish a single fucking adult being nicer could have helped shinji- i mean you, you, avoid the fate you've been living out, what do you mean being a teenager called nothing but a scared fucking failure made you turn out like this what do you mean what do you MEAN

i wanna make food for those i love. that's my lewd post of the day

alcohok amkes me eat so much more its so cool im like the cute monster hunterhunter just eatinfg and eating but instead of hunting i'm yapping and hopefully titties soon yippieyhayyyy

god i LOVE BEING DRUNK AAAAAFJFMNDSMDFM

im so full of indian and Chinese food