âDo you hate me?â // @thelastbertinelli
She found him on a rooftop. Dick wasnât sure if sheâd been looking for him or not but, if she had, he probably hadnât been hard to find. It was an unspoken rule for both Nightwing and Dick Grayson, the kind of thing anyone who knew him knew well. If you wanted to find him, just look up. Heâd always gravitated towards heights, always felt most at ease with the wind ripping through his hair and the world miniaturized beneath him.Â
He heard her before he saw her, because theyâd all learned how to move silently by necessity but theyâd all learned how to listen for one another, too. Gotham vigilantes, especially those associated with the Bat, learned the same lessons. Dick kicked a foot where it hung off the ledge of the roof, contemplating taking a dive just to get away from the conversation. A dramatic reaction, perhaps, but no one had ever accused him of being anything but.
For a moment, he didnât reply. He let the question settle in his mind for a moment, let himself consider it. Normally, the answer would have been fast, would have come without hesitation because even if no wasnât the truth, he would have said it to spare her feelings. That was what Dick did. With her, with his siblings, with everyone. He was the peacekeeper, the one who told everyone what they needed to hear, the one who took the hit so that other people wouldnât have to. But it ached, after a while, to take every hit. It hurt to bend over backwards to catch bullets for everyone else when you werenât sure theyâd do the same for you.
Finally, he sighed and shrugged a shoulder, not looking away from where his gaze was fixed on the cityâs skyline. âI hate what youâre doing,â he replied. âI hate how youâre acting. I hate that youâre working with the people who made me an orphan. I hate that youâre pretending I have no reason to be upset by any of it. I hate that you keep... discounting what Iâm feeling because itâs inconvenient to you. I hate that youâve either actually become this person or you donât trust me enough to tell me whatâs actually going on. I hate that youâre treating me like an obstacle instead of a friend, after everything weâve been through.â He paused for a moment, drumming his fingers against the bricks. âI donât know if I hate you,â he admitted, âbut I hate this.â