B - but, if I was answering you honestly... ( something shuddery, a little breath that blends somewhere into something passable as a chuckle -- like she's trying to balance herself, maybe. ) ...I'd say my, um, mom? Maybe it's all the ( vague gesturing, ) lack of relationship experience, but... I don't think anything'll ever compare to watching ... that.

She defies much of the logic that might apply to others that've went through what she has, and most of that is willingly. If anything, she's so unabashedly herself that it runs people off. Alyssa surely wouldn't have had it any other way. In the face of anxiety, optimism. Or, put like her mother would have said it, if you get knocked down, just make sure you get back up.