thoughts on cphil’s train of thought?
hmmm type of guy to think like, really strictly at first. Like he has a very firm thought process on something at first and doesn't let it sway from the ideas he has on it, but the further he thinks into it, the more it unravels and he feels like he's losing control in his own mind. he gets overwhelmed and doesn't go further than that, which causes a lot of emotional repression
like this:
wilbur died -> I killed Wilbur -> I killed Wilbur because he was unstable and dangerous and he was asking me to -> I killed Wilbur because he was having a breakdown -> What else could I have done? -> Could I have saved Wilbur? -> Is it my fault? -> did I do this what did I do I couldn't do anything I tried I didn't try I never wanted this I still did it
