#theextag

It's time to leave behind the pain,

Time to leave behind the tears, the anguish, the late nights of laying awake.

Time to leave behind the void of not having you next to me anymore

Where you once stood, holding my hand, letting my know that all is well.

Somehow, some way, for some reason unknown to me, we drifted and you let go. I scrambled to hold on tightly, but my efforts failed. For a long while I was at a loss of how to go on without you by my side because I had thought that I would get to say those three words to you, those that I waited so long to hear from you, only to be disappointed in never hearing them come from your lips. 

Even now I could still tell you that I... That I... 

But because my pride got in the way of my...

It got in the way of my ...

I've learned to come to terms with my mistakes

I've learned to deal with the pain

I've learned that without you, there was no me, and with you, there was never a me. There was only a YOU and an US. There was never a ME and YOU because there was never a ME, just an US. 

I've learned to see myself in a new light

I'm learning about myself everyday now.

I've discovered that I am a difficult and complicated individual.

I've discovered that once I love, I will always love and that love will forever leave a lasting impression on my sole. 

I've discovered that my motivation is nothing without my action.

Finally, I have discovered that...

I don't deserve happiness. I must earn it. 

And I think that with my recent activities, I have earned this new happiness. 

So today I leave behind the pain. 

Today I leave behind the memories.

Today I leave behind the tears and anguish.

Today, I refuse to be haunted by the memory of you. 

I am going to be happy, because I have earned it.

I have no reason anymore to keep the memories of you haunting my happiness.

Thank you,