#thecastrotask

What song would you say is your personal anthem? smalltown boy

What did you want to be growing up? a big time singer

Who was your first kiss? a girl who lived down the street, sometime during middle school I think? Was nothing remarkable really, I can’t even remember her name.

What was your biggest fear as a child? disappointing my parents... and the dark.

What is the most surprising fact you’ve learned about yourself in the last 5 years? that i’m not just good enough for shitty small town bars

What are you most proud of? my roots

What do you want to be remembered for when you die? my music

What is your relationship like with your parents? it’s... good.

What is the biggest regret you have? not saying things i really should’ve

What did you want to be growing up?

I always wanted to be a business man. Thought it’d be so glamorous.

Who was your first kiss?

A guy in my highschool. We were playing gay chicken. I won.

What was your biggest fear as a child?

Probably loosin’ my family or something.

What is the most surprising fact you’ve learned about yourself in the last 5 years?

I’ve learned that you can’t trust no one.

What is your relationship like with your parents?

They’re dead so I guess not much of one? 

What do you like doing in your free time?

What did you want to be growing up? To belong. Then I realized we are all parts of stars and things changed for the better.

Who was your first kiss? No idea anymore honestly. I’ve been kissing everything that walked since... gosh I was probably not even in school yet and sure that probably doesn’t count but also like... I just love all people so.

What was your biggest fear as a child? My Dad.

What is the most surprising fact you’ve learned about yourself in the last 5 years? That not enough people give themselves enough credit. That I need to give myself more credit. I should probably work on my credit. I have really bad credit.

What are you most proud of? I didn’t lose my cannabis for like a week straight. Pretty major honestly.

What do you want to be remembered for when you die? As a legend. As that guy who lived life to the fullest and was the best dude around. 

What is your relationship like with your parents? Considering my sperm donor used to beat me and Mom was more or less powerless to him; yet didn’t stop him when he kicked me out. Haven’t spoken to them for years; not going to change.

What is the biggest regret you have? Not leaving home sooner honestly. I’d of made it and not suffered nearly as much for it.

What did you want to be growing up? Free. There was a lot expected of me back then and I just wanted to live a life I could of been proud of. I got there, so that’s something.

Who was your first kiss? I never managed to land a first kiss until I reached Canada actually. Two weeks into University, the lovely TA just went for it; of which I had to explain that not only was I not interested but I was also trying to take her position... so it’d be best if we didn’t. She became my best friend.

What was your biggest fear as a child? That I’d have to conform to a life of unhappiness for family.

What is the most surprising fact you’ve learned about yourself in the last 5 years? I should really find time to find myself a life partner I can invest half the time I spend chasing after these fickle young men I seem to find myself with a lot of the time. They are infuriatingly charming though.

What are you most proud of? The achievements my students do after they leave my classroom. Seriously they are the reason I awake up with a smile on my face and their fearless pursuit of their own lives ensures I have reasons to get up and involved.

What do you want to be remembered for when you die? My legacy will be in every student that comes through me on their path into the world, while they may never attribute my teaching to their achievements; I have and will keep track of them if possible. I will live of through them and hopefully they pass that one to the next generation.

What is your relationship like with your parents? Great now. Granted it took a sudden immigration and ten years for them to come to terms with me and my decision, but since then we’re in a good place a skype a few times a week. One day I might get to visit them again and that’ll be the most joyous occasion.

What is the biggest regret you have? I don’t really have any? Like everything that’s happened in my life has been a lesson to learn and so I don’t think I have any regrets? I needed to learn all those lessons when they happened, as they’ve shaped much of my life for the better.

What did you want to be growing up? Beautiful? It was the only thing that felt unobtainable to Hayden growing up with all the bullying he faced.

Who was your first kiss? It was a girl halfway through high school; was the first of many people ‘dared’ to face the beast.

What was your biggest fear as a child? That I was the cause of the accident.

What is the most surprising fact you’ve learned about yourself in the last 5 years? I’m a way more functional adult than I realized. I should probably reign that in a bit in case my Ma finds out.

What are you most proud of? The face Ma and I have gotten so far without Dad. How resilient I am, despite all of it.

What do you want to be remembered for when you die? Can I not be? I mean like my work will last for years, but I don’t think I’m influential enough or important enough to be remembered.

What is your relationship like with your parents? Considering it’s just been and and my Ma for over twenty years now, we’re pretty close. I’d go as far as to say she probably the only reason I’m alive today. I never really got to know my Dad, dying before I could really form meaningful memories but also in the manner he did... I have pictures and that's about it.

What is the biggest regret you have? Wasting time on things that didn’t matter. Like my burn scars; I know they tell a story of trials and tribulations but they are always a source of strength and resilience and if other’s can’t see that... they probably should be in my life. Least that’s what I’m telling myself.