#theassertiontest

- The night of the 13th— and practically every night since then— I dreamt about my research. The “dream” is really just me thinking about my current project and talking about it with others. I’ve been having this motivation to actually work on it. Something I haven’t experienced in a while. It’s enlivening. Question: how will I maintain this momentum if/when this excitement fades? I think that’s an Aries in Saturn matter. Committing to the work even if the passion isn’t there.

- I’ve been faced with some events that normally other people would meet with anger. Or rather they would make their frustration known. Is it okay to let mine out? I’ve mentioned this before but I think bottling it up will increase inflammation in my body.

- Another situation that will play out in a couple weeks. I have to teach a particularly math/theory heavy lecture for this class I’m TA’ing. Fighting through the imposter syndrome that boils in me. Today, I went over the lecture with the professor. His advice: project your voice, you’re too humble, be assertive, you know the material, they’ll only challenge you if you don’t seem confident, think of it as a performance. The last part really struck a chord with my Leo NN. It’s funny how literal astrology is sometimes; the overall themes of one’s chart can be observed in many different placements. But it’s all related.