#thaddeus x reader

He lifts the skewer closer, hesitates, then gently nudges it toward your lips. You blink, startled, and for a moment he thinks you might refuse. Instead, you take it from him and bite down. The sugar breaks with a sharp, clean crack.

He waits.

“So,” he asks, voice pitched carefully light. “What do you think?”

You finish chewing before answering. “Oh. Yeah. It’s fine.”

Fine.

The word lands heavier than any ambush.

Thaddeus smiles anyway, the practiced kind that comes easily after years of surviving rooms that wanted him dead. “Well, you can have more later,” he says. “I made grapes too. Oranges. I’ll just finish them up.”

He leaves before the silence can stretch any further.

In the kitchen, he leans his palms against the counter and exhales. He does not let himself sulk for long. He never has. Kowloon taught him that dwelling is dangerous, that weakness invites ruin. He did not become what he is because of cruelty or darkness, but because he learned how to stand back up when everything worth loving was taken from him.

Still, this hurts in a way fists never did.

He had faced death without flinching. He had lost parents, mentors, an entire city that once called him its own. None of that prepared him for the quiet terror of wanting someone’s approval and feeling it slip through his fingers.

Maybe grapes will help. People like grapes. Grapes are safe.

He straightens, forces energy back into his movements, talks to himself as he works. “All right. Round two. Different texture. Different sweetness. We adapt.”

He straightens immediately, clapping his hands together as if morale itself might be summoned by noise alone.

He returns carrying the plate, already rehearsing a joke he hopes might make you smile.

And then he hears it.

Your laughter.

It stops him cold.

Apostle Simon is mid-joke, grinning shamelessly. “So I told him, if you’re going to lose an arm, at least make sure it’s not the one you use to clap.”

It is objectively awful.

You laugh anyway. Openly. Brightly. The sound lifts something in the room that Thaddeus did not realize had been missing.

Something inside him caves in.

He stands there too long, watching. His chest tightens, his thoughts turning sharp and ugly before he can stop them.

So that’s it. That’s what it takes.

Older. One-armed. Rough around the edges in a way that does not try so hard.

It hurts to think of you this way. He hates himself for it.

‘So… she just hates me,’ he thinks, quietly, unfairly, because it hurts less to assume rejection than to hope for something else.

He steps forward anyway. He always does.

“Hey,” he says, cheerful by sheer force of will. “I made more tanghulu. You can have some too, Apostle Simon.”

Simon beams. “Don’t mind if I do, dear nephew.” He bites into a grape and promptly forgets the rest of the world.

Thaddeus notices what Simon does not.

Your smile fades the second you see him. Your shoulders pull in. Your eyes drop, as if you have been caught doing something wrong.

Oh.

Understanding flickers, then dims under self doubt.

Right. Let me down easy, will you?

He laughs quietly to himself, the sound hollow. He does not need devotion. He does not even need requited romance. He would settle for a glance that lingers, for conversation that does not feel like an obligation for once.

Just… let me exist to you.

He does not see Simon pull out the bottle.

“Clearance,” Simon announces proudly. “Do not tell Peter.”

Drinking happens faster than Thaddeus expects.

He handles it fine. He always does.

You do not.

Your words soften, then tangle. At some point you drift closer to him, staring far too intently at his face like you are trying to solve a puzzle.

“It’s unfair,” you mutter.

“Uh,” he says carefully. “What is?”

Before he can react, you lean in and bite his cheek.

Not hard. Confused. Almost fond.

“Ow,” he says, more startled than hurt.

You pull back, mortified. “You look like a cute chipmunk when you eat,” you mumble. “I hate it.”

He blinks.

“Hate… it?”

Your face heats instantly. You turn away, voice small now. “Because if you knew I thought that, you’d never shut up about it.”

Something in him stills.

All the distance. The flat replies. The way you never quite met his eyes.

You were not indifferent.

You were hiding.

The realization hits harder than any blow he has ever taken. Warmth spreads through his chest, fragile and terrifying. He laughs, soft and breathless, like someone who has just realized he might not be alone after all.

MATTHIAS

reader needed to buy a new light bulb.

the one in her bedroom had burned out the night before, and despite the growing unease she had been feeling lately, she decided to go out alone.

for the past few days, she couldn't shake the feeling that someone had been following her.

still, it was broad daylight. there were plenty of people outside. surely no one would try anything in public, right?

unfortunately, a man with a twisted mind could do anything. even in broad daylight.

at first, Reader tried to convince herself she was imagining things but when she glanced behind her and saw the same man from earlier walking in her direction, her stomach dropped.

he wasn't running.

he wasn't even calling out to her.

he was simply walking.

yet his strides were so large that the distance between them kept shrinking.

reader immediately turned away, to look for a crowded area.

the problem was that she had already wandered farther from home than intended.

worse she had left her phone behind, assuming she would only be out for a few minutes.

now she was alone and being followed.

panic clawed at her chest then she saw him.

a blond man sat alone at an outdoor café table, casually drinking coffee.

without thinking, Reader hurried over and sat beside him.

her eyes darted around nervously.

the stalker was getting closer.

acting purely on instinct, she grabbed the sleeve of the blond man's cardigan.

"please... h-help me. there's someone who's been following me."

as she turned to look at the man she had just begged for help from, she momentarily forgot about the stalker entirely.

because the man beside her was somehow even more intimidating.

his expression was completely blank.

tattoos decorated his face.

combined with his piercing gaze, he looked terrifying.

reader's mouth fell open.

slowly, she released his sleeve.

"sorry."

she was about to stand and leave when a voice shouted from behind her.

"hey, you bitch! i was just being friendly! why are you running away?"

the stalker pointed aggressively at her as he approached.

reader immediately sat back down.

her body froze.

the stalker was standing directly in front of her now.

her hands trembled.

cold sweat gathered on her palms.

she wanted to ask the blond man for help again.

but when she looked beside her

he was already standing.

the blond man stared directly at the stalker.

his expression remained blank, yet there was a faint smirk on his lips.

the movement revealed his braces and tongue piercing.

both hands remained tucked inside his pockets.

"what do you want with my girlfriend?"

the stalker clicked his tongue.

"your girlfriend? who the hell are you?"

"matthias."

the blond man tilted his head slightly.

"her boyfriend."

the smile on his face widened.

"and the thing is... i get jealous very easily."

he raised his hand and formed a finger gun.

"leave her alone if you still want to..."

the stalker froze.

completely froze.

as if he had suddenly recognized exactly who matthias was.

reader remained seated.

head lowered, she hear her own heart pounding.

her entire body shook from anxiety.

what if a fight broke out? what if someone got hurt?

she took several deep breaths before finally gathering enough courage to step between them.

but when she looked up—

the stalker was gone.

completely gone.

as if he had vanished into thin air.

matthias was sitting again, one leg crossed over the other while casually sipping his coffee.

he was smirking at her.

"do we have a problem here, girlfriend?"

he tilted his head.

reader blinked.

matthias stood.

"be more careful next time."

he reached over and ruffled her hair.

"see you around."

and then he simply walked away.

reader sat frozen in place.

flustered and confused. still nervous.

but not nearly as terrified as earlier.

what the hell just happened?

and why was there a calling card sitting on top of her head?

slowly, she picked it up.

a phone number was written on it.

reader kept the card.

who knows?

maybe someday she would call the number just to say thank you.

because ever since the day Matthias helped her

she never saw, heard from, or encountered her stalker again.

THADDEUS

reader was at a club with her friends, enjoying a long-overdue girls' night out.the music was loud, the lights flashed across the dance floor, and after a few drinks, reader was feeling pleasantly tipsy.

not drunk. just tipsy enough to fully enjoy dancing. her confidence was higher than usual, and she moved freely to the music, laughing with her friends.

unfortunately, confidence and beauty tended to attract attention. most of the glances directed at her were harmless. some people admired from afar. others simply watched but there was always that one person who decided to cross the line.

reader felt someone move closer behind her. too close even through the haze of alcohol, her instincts immediately kicked in.

when a hand reached toward her waist, she slapped it away without hesitation. the sharp sound cut through the music.

reader turned around.

"what the hell? get lost, you creep."

she immediately stepped away from the man.

the creep merely smirked.

"come on," he said, following her. "ive been watching you since the moment you walked into the club."

reader's expression twisted in disgust.

"leave me alone, you fucking creep."

she turned and hurried away. the man followed.

"hey, why are you so angry? just show me some moves and ill leave you al—"

he never got to finish because suddenly there was a foot directly in front of his face. the man stumbled backward in shock. standing between him and reader was another man.

a huge grin stretched across his face. his arms were crossed casually over his chest while one leg remained raised, balanced perfectly on the other.

the kick hadn't actually landed but it had come close enough. close enough that the creep could still feel the impact of the air brushing past his cheek. he was almost certain a bruise would appear anyway.

"how about my move?" the newcomer asked cheerfully.

his grin widened.

"can you rate it, xiongdi? if you want, i can show you a few more."

the creep immediately took another step back. reader stared. she had absolutely no idea where this guy came from but she wasn't complaining. the man still had his leg raised, completely prepared to plant his foot directly into the creep's face if necessary.

"hey, xiongdi! say sorry to the gorgeous lady right there."

the stranger pointed his chin toward reader. reader blinked. she was confused. a little impressed and admittedly fascinated by the ridiculously confident man who had suddenly appeared to save her.

the creep nervously looked at reader. she raised an eyebrow.

"s-sorry. i won't force myself on you."

the man protecting reader shifted slightly. the creep immediately panicked.

"sorry!" he repeated. "i won't invade your personal space again or any other woman's personal space!"

reader rolled her eyes.

"you better not." she crossed her arms. "now get lost. your presence is ruining my night."

the creep wasted no time. he practically sprinted away. only after he disappeared into the crowd did the stranger finally lower his leg. reader walked over to him.

"thank you."

she smiled warmly. the man smiled back just as brightly.

"my pleasure, gorgeous."

he casually brushed his clothes straight.

"i merely did what any real man should do."

reader laughed.

"bare minimum btw."

"facts." the man nodded seriously.

then immediately ruined the serious atmosphere by grinning again.reader couldn't help laughing. the stranger suddenly bowed dramatically. one hand rested behind his back while the other extended toward her.

"may I request this dance, my lady?"

reader looked at his outstretched hand. then at his face. then back at his hand.

"sorry. i don't dance with strangers." she paused. "at least give me your name first."

the man placed a hand over his chest as if wounded.

"my deepest apologies, my lady." he straightened. "thaddeus is the name."

reader smiled. this time, she accepted his hand.

"okay, thaddeus."

a playful challenge appeared in her eyes.

"show me some of your moves."

the grin that spread across thaddeus' face was downright dangerous.

"oh, trust me."

He gently pulled her toward the dance floor.

"i've got plenty of moves."

ALIPEDE

alipede had been taking a late-night walk to clear his mind. the streets were quiet, illuminated only by scattered streetlights and the occasional glow from nearby buildings. the peaceful atmosphere was exactly what he needed.

or at least, it had been. then he heard running. judging by the uneven footsteps, labored breathing, and frantic pace, it was a woman. she sounded exhausted, as if she had been running for a long time.

a moment later, alipede sensed another person behind her. someone chasing her. someone with bad intentions.

"HELP! HELP!"

reader's voice echoed through the street as she ran toward him. her face was pale. sweat dripped down her forehead. fear was written all over her expression. alipede glance at the reader's way. then turn away again and continued walking. he had no intention of getting involved. not his problem.

reader ran past him, her heart sinking when she realized the intimidating stranger wasn't stopping to help but just as the man chasing her reached alipede.he slammed directly into him.

"MOVE ASIDE, ASSHOLE!"

the man shoved him aggressively as he tried to continue the pursuit.

alipede stopped walking.

the peaceful night walk he had been enjoying was officially ruined.

without warning, he grabbed the man's arm.

the stalker's eyes widened.

a sharp twist on stalker's hand with a violent takedown.

the man hit the pavement hard.

"YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE!" he screamed.

meanwhile, reader finally had a chance to catch her breath.

seeing the opportunity, she immediately pulled out her phone and called the police.

she quickly reported the harassment and gave them her location to stop the situation before it escalated further.

she glance at the two men, they were already exchanging punches.

the stalker scrambled to his feet and swung first.

alipede responded without hesitation.

the fight was brutal. one-sided, but brutal.

the officers arrived within minutes.

by the time they reached the scene, the stalker had been beaten badly enough that resisting arrest was no longer an option.

the police immediately handcuffed him.

reader let out a shaky sigh of relief.

finally, it was over but then one of the officers frowned.

"miss, where's the other man?"

reader blinked.

"the other man?"

the officer nodded.

"the one who helped you."

reader turned around.

the street behind her was empty.

completely empty.

the man who had saved her was gone.

no trace that he had ever been there.

he had vanished as suddenly as he had appeared.

reader stared at the empty street for several moments before finally relaxing.

at least the stalker had been caught.

that was all that mattered.

as the police led the battered man toward their vehicle, reader couldn't help glancing one last time at the place where the mysterious stranger had stood.

she never even got the chance to thank him.

still...

“Well, they’re mostly slaves, so...” You said with a sardonic smile, testing the weight of a new rifle on your back before walking past him. You heard him stammer as you went over to rejoin your companion, who had found an ammo box of his own. 

“You uh—“ he went on, following your path. “You look good for uhm—for having gone through…that.” 

“I didn’t,” you said, setting your bag down on a workbench near the other two. The man’s friend, Max—you’d overheard—looked up as you began emptying your bag. 

“Well, then that’s really great! You know stuff like…stuff like that-that’s just...” He scoffed. “You know it’s just really shitty.” 

“Thanks,” you said with a raised brow, then returned your attention to the handgun you’d pulled from your bag. 

“What’s shitty?” Max asked, looking between the two of you and throwing his friend a silent ‘what are you doing?’ 

“Slavery,” he said, furrowing his brow in sympathy. “Did you know that’s what’s happening in Arizona? I mean, gosh, we should be doing something about that.” His gaze found you again, angling his head to see your face, hoping you’d be impressed with the gumption. 

“Arizona?” Max repeated, now both their eyes were on you. “That’s all Legion territory.” 

“Yep,” you confirmed, keeping your focus on the weapon. 

“You got out?” 

“Yep.” 

“I mean, a girl like you, how could they keep you?” The other chimed in again. “They took one look at you and said ‘well you just go wherever you want, sexy lady’.”

You turned your head slowly, your brow raised again as you looked at him. “I was seven.”

“Right,” he nodded, finding somewhere else to look. “Probably uh…probably didn’t say that then.”

“What’s your name?” You asked, holstering the newly modded gun on your hip. 

“It’s uh, it’s Thaddeus,” he answered, almost reluctantly. Before you could say anything, you heard a shifting behind you. 

“Go find something to shoot with, kid.” The Ghoul spoke, short and clipped. Thaddeus nodded, scurrying off. You cast a glance over your shoulder, speaking without words to your companion. You smiled, a barely there, teasing smirk before pulling your bag over your shoulder. 

Back on the road, it was Max who had matched your pace to talk to you first. “How’s a seven-year-old escape the Legion?” He asked, genuinely curious. You let out a long breath through your nose, keeping your eyes on the remains of the highway. 

“It was 2281,” you said. He shrugged, and you let him sit in the silence for a moment before he eventually caught on. 

“That was-“ 

“Yeah,” you nodded. “It was a lot of back and forth, really. That week, Caesar was on the short end of the rope. Sent more Legionnaires across the Colorado, left Bullhead a little less…patrolled. One night, my mom snuck us down to the river, stole a dinghy, and we left. We landed in Nevada, outskirts of Legion territory. But there was an NCR camp close enough we could see the flag.”

“You made it?” 

“I made it,” you said, working your jaw for a pause. “During the Battle, the Legion didn’t have time for all their peacocking. No crucifixions or bizarre torture. If you did something wrong, they just shot you.“ You pulled your water out from your bag, taking a long drink as you walked. “Nearly got me, too. A trooper caught it instead.”

Max nodded along, his wide eyes giving you an empathetic look even as you kept your gaze straight. “I lost my parents too,” he said. “Shady Sands.”

“Jesus,” you muttered, finally turning to him. “Good thing it’s not a competition.” You smiled as you capped your water, returning the canteen. “How’s someone survive that? We settled on the other side of the old state line and we had to evacuate to avoid any radiation.”

“My parents put me in the icebox,” he said. You chuckled, looking forward again. 

“Our house had this old fruit cellar,” you heard after an awkward jog to join your pace. “Yeah, my mom would put us in there if we didn’t make enough food. My brothers were always kind of scared, but,” Thaddeus clicked his tongue with a nonchalant shrug. “Wasn’t really much to me though, y’know?”

“Yeah,” you agreed with a sigh, fixing your gaze on the Ghoul who now seemed to be almost unsteady on his feet. Thaddeus kept prattling on about how that same bravery probably would’ve made him a good Knight, but you tuned him out. 

“I mean it was kind of crappy to put the dog in that cooler, but—“

“Give us a second,” you interrupted, jogging forward after watching the Ghoul off his usual stride. 

“You done boostin’ troop morale?” He asked, not sparing you a glance as you fell into his pace. His voice sounded more tired than its usual rasp.

“Are you out?” You asked, ignoring the comment as you began to rifle through your bag. 

“No,” he snipped.  

“Then what’s up with you?”

“I’ve been alive for two hundred years, sweetheart. Some days a fella’s just a little sore,” He said. You huffed, narrowing your eyes at him. 

“Don’t give me that shit, Cowboy,” you hissed back. “Stop being a pain in the ass and tell me what you need.”

“I need you to quit playin’ nurse,” he clipped. 

“The Strip’s got more deathclaws than it’s got poker chips right now,” you said, stopping in your tracks. You grabbed him by the sleeve of his duster, making him stop too. “I don’t know what you got yourself into after we separated, but you’re messed up, and going in there tired as a racehorse won’t do anyone any favors. Stop being a fucking tool and let me help you.”

He jerked his arm out of your hold, turning to glare down at you. You matched his stare, the two of you at a standstill until Thaddeus and Max were about a yard behind you. 

“Fine,” he growled, stepping back.  He looked back towards the two men, jerking his head in a silent keep going. The two of you walked until you found the two-walled remains of an old house. 

“Keep going straight,” you told Max. “We’ll catch up in a minute.” You and the Ghoul ducked behind what bricks were left of one of the walls. He sat down on the few planks that still made up the front staircase. He pulled off the bandolier and saddle bag, letting you see the state of his clothing. His vest was buttoned on the top and the bottom, but the middle was torn, as was the blue shirt underneath. The middle of his abdomen was charred and not yet healed; around it, newly scarred skin twisted and snarled toward a point in the center. You got closer, straddling the edge of his lap before gingerly reaching out to touch the fabric of his shirt, stained darker with now-dried blood. 

“Jesus Cowboy,” you muttered, running a finger along the jagged edge of the tear. “You catch the business end of a Fat Man?” 

“Not quite,” he muttered, wincing as your hand moved to graze over the healing wound, the skin of which was hot to the touch. 

“Whatever happened,” you said, stilling your hand on his side. “Looks like you’re almost healed.” 

“Looks can be deceivin’,” he said. You hummed, shrugging your bag off your shoulder and setting it on his legs between your bodies. 

“StimPak, then?” You asked. He nodded, watching as you pulled a smaller bag of different chems and medications out. “I need to get more when we get to Vegas.” 

“Last one?” 

You hummed, pulling the cap of the syringe. 

“Shouldn’t go wastin’ it on me, then.” He said, but didn’t stop you as you pressed the needle into his abdomen. 

“I’m a little more careful than you are.” You smiled back, but kept your focus on the syringe as the medication auto-injected. He hissed, his jaw clenched tight as he leaned his head back. When the pressure gauge clicked empty, you withdrew it, tossing it haphazardly behind you. He let out a long breath, one gloved hand finding your hip to rest on. You put your own back against the now healed skin, frowning to feel it still felt feverishly hot. “Any better?” He nodded, closing his eyes for a heavy moment. 

“Got anythin’ else in that bag of yours?” He asked. You shook your head with a soft smile. 

“So needy,” you tsked playfully, grabbing an inhaler and a vial of the yellow, viscous chem. “You’re still hot,” you noted, handing him the inhaler. 

“I suppose there’s somethin’ for everyone.” He said, straightening up before taking a deep inhale of the medication. 

You rolled your eyes. “You know what I mean.” 

“Uranium,” he said, giving the inhaler back. You instinctively pulled your hand away. He chuckled, a small and almost undetectable noise at your reaction. “Hope you took your Rad-X today, sweetheart.” 

“Maybe I should take another,” you hummed archly, putting the medications back in your bag. You shifted your attention to the torn leather of his vest with a small frown. “I can try to fix this when we get settled.” His other hand reached up, holding your chin and guiding your gaze back to him. 

“Don’t think we are,” he said. “Might be it.” 

You nodded, fidgeting absentmindedly with the frayed fabric. “He knew, then?” He nodded. “You think he’s telling the truth?” 

“Stakes were pretty high. Didn’t have a reason to lie.” He said. 

“How’d she take it?” You asked. 

“You’re lookin’ at it.” 

You sucked your teeth, raising your brow. “I told you,” you hummed. 

“Get it out of your system.” 

You gave him a quick smile, raising your head a hair out of his hand, which mirrored the other on your hip. “You think they’ll take it okay?” You asked in earnest. He nodded after a thoughtful moment. 

“She will,” he said eventually. “She’s the kind of kid who’d smile at the boogeyman.” Your smile turned warm. 

“What’s her name?” You asked, the question a proverbial toe in the water. 

“Janey,” he answered softly. You nodded. 

“It’s pretty,” you said, your hand stilling on the fabric as you silently stammered. “What’s yours?” You watched his face, and it looked for a moment as if you might get an answer, but you wouldn’t get the chance to hear it. 

“So we’ve been going straight and-“  You heard the awkward pitch of Thaddeus’ voice as he rounded the corner. You leaned back on instinct, and the Ghoul moved one hand from your hip. “Oh…sorry.” He blurted out, and you looked over your shoulder.

“Sorry,” you sighed. “We’ll catch up here in a second.” 

“Yeah, no, that’s fine there’s just like this kind of fork in the road…” Thaddeus said, running a thumb along one suspender. You heard the Ghoul let out a graveled sigh of his own. “…and your dog keeps wanting to go the wrong direction, and we think she’s just confused because you’re back here.” 

“Your dog’s confused,” you said, turning back to the Ghoul with a small smile. He rolled his eyes. 

“Your dog’s incessant,” he shot back under his breath. You rolled your eyes, standing up and allowing him to follow suit.  You let Thaddeus gather himself, then the two of you followed him back towards the highway. 

“What’re you going to do?” He asked, his voice lower so as not to gather the attention of the other men. 

“Don’t know yet,” you shrugged. “Maybe settle in Freeside for a while.” 

“Ain’t what it used to be,” he said. “Might be smarter to leave Vegas altogether.”

“Don’t really know where else I’d go.” You admitted. “Gotten so used to traveling I haven’t thought much about where else I’d go. Maybe I’ll keep at it, things are feeling uneasy again. Only a matter of time before they’re at it with each other again.”  He hummed, looking forward to the two men who seemed to be trying to keep their own voices down. 

“Don’t stray too far,” he said eventually. “Just in case.” You nodded, a small smile wanting to pull at your lips.  

The Ghoul eventually made his way back to the front of the small campaign, and you were content to keep your own pace a few feet following him, Max and Thaddeus behind you. Eventually, you noticed the taller of the two next to you in your peripheral. 

“So you uh…you like ghouls?” He asked. You turned to look at him with a raised brow, but said nothing. “I’m a ghoul. Ghoul in progress, really.” You gave him a skeptical once-over, then fixed your eyes straight ahead again. “So right now is great because I’m a human with all the ghoul benefits. Or the other way around, whichever works best for you, really.”

The room is quiet, boiling sun bleeding through the windows as you sit on the edge of the cot. Your eyes tiredly gazing at the floor, nose busted as your brother paced the floor lecturing you.

“I’ve told you! I’ve told you a million times not to do that, don’t put yourself between me and them!” He hits his chest then gestured towards the closed door as he looks away from you with a scowl.

“They were beating the shit out of you, Max…i couldn’t just stand there and let them do that!” You argue, looking up at him with a glare, annoyed by this whole conversation.

He glares back, harder than before as he crouches down to your level. You’ve never seen him this angry, especially at you and it has your attitude ebbing away.

“And now you have a busted nose and black eye because you didn’t listen to me…I can handle myself with these men. You can’t…” He stands and shakes his head, your reckless streak has been pissing him off.

And you stand as he dares say you can’t handle yourself, you damn well could and you both knew it. “I can handle myself…i don’t need you constantly hovering over me trying to protect me!” You yell at him, tired of being treated like a helpless fragile creature.

You knew how to fight, you knew when to run from one if you’re sure you can’t win. You are an aspirant, part of the brotherhood of steel and you had enough of how some of those guys treat your big brother out of their own jealousy. So of course you’ll fight for him, he would do the same for you.

But Maximus crowds your space, coming chest to chest with you and he knew from the way you step back that your scared and it proves his point…

“You’d be dead if it wasn’t for me, you’re gonna start a fight with the wrong guy and get beat to death, and they will beat you to death” He spoke lowly and you look away as he grabs your shoulders.

“I’m not hovering to make your life miserable, I’m trying to keep you safe because you’re all I have….” Those words made something twist in your chest, your eyes meeting his again and you sigh…

“I know, Max…I just…if you’re always protecting me, who’s gonna protect you?…” You ask those words in a quiet voice, hating that he was always thinking about others rather than himself.

He smiles slowly and pats your cheek, holding it as he shakes his head at your words. You were just like him, he could see you’d always worry about him no matter what. “I can protect myself…” He says and kisses your forehead.

You scoff and push him away as he starts going about his day. “Is that why you let those guys beat you up?” You retort and he rolls his eyes as he laces his boots.

“Shut up…” He replied before a knock at the door is heard and he gives you a look before standing and going to the door.

You make sure your chest compressor is on, being silent as you sit down, your elbows on your knees. Harnessing masculine treats and mannerisms came easy to you, especially since you grew up having to pretend around mostly men so you and Maximus didn’t get separated. He taught you everything he knew, he butchered your hair off and called you his brother ‘Marcus’ who everyone makes fun of. They call you runt most of the time…

Maximus opens the door and you watch as a squire announces that you are needed.

“Aspirant Marcus, your presence has been requested” you furrow your brows but stand, looking to Maximus who nods once but you can tell he’s nervous for you and you roll your eyes.

“What for? Who wants him?” You shake your head as he asks the questions and the other squire seemed annoyed he even had to be the one to fetch you.

“Elder Cleric Quintus” Maximus looks at you with furrowed brows and you follow the squire out…

The walk is quiet, you do feel nervous as hell. You clear your throat multiple times, trying to make sure your voice is masculine, manly. You know you’ll have to speak…

Once at Elder Cleric Quintus room, the squire opens the door for you and you walk in, seeing the old man sitting in his chair.

“Ah…young Marcus…come in” You hear the squire shut the door behind you as you step into the room, lowering your head.

“Elder Cleric Quintus…” You greet with a deep but wavering voice, eyes meeting his once more. “If this is about the fight between me and a few of the aspirants…I-i can explain—“

“It is about your fight…now sit” You sit immediately and your heart is pounding out of your chest. You swallow thickly, watching Quintus as he eyes you.

You didn’t know what your punishment would be, or if you’d be fighting a much stronger opponent or not. But you are terrified and it must show on your face because he speaks on it.

“Don’t fret…Im impressed with your agility, your courage and bravery to take on five other aspirants twice your size…” You sigh in some relief and nod as you try to relax in the seat.

“May I ask why I’m here then?…” Quintus nods softly and pushes some things around on his desk.

“You have the strength and courage to be a squire…” Your eyes widen at those words, the thought of ranking up to squire is an exciting one.

So you stand and look at Quintus with wide eyes, your nose still busted and eye black. “I’m ranking up to squire?…” You spoke In disbelief and Quintus only nods.

“Clean up…it will be set in stone in two hours…” You smiled at that and left his room, going back to where you knew Maximus was probably pacing with worry.

You burst through the door and shut it behind you with a grin. “Max! I’m gonna be a squire!” You announced happily and the worried man looks at you in disbelief now.

“What?…wait…your ranking to squire?” Maximus practically scoffs and gestured at you. “You! The smallest one of us who hasn’t even hardly been out there!” He points behind him, gesturing towards the wasteland. “Your becoming a squire before me?!” You sighed as your excitement has been stomped out with your brother’s jealousy.

“Thank you for being happy for me, max” your voice drips with sarcasm as you walk over to a bowl of water and start cleaning your face.

He scoffs again and shakes his head. “You’ll die out there! How am i supposed to be happy about this!?” You dry your face and hands off and turn to give him a deadpan look.

“I can take care of myself, max…you’ve taught me how to fight and when to run from a fight I can’t handle…” You try to reassure the man but he sighs deeply and runs a hand through his hair.

“This is stupid…” Maximus mumbles and you punch his shoulder. “Ow!” He rubs his arm you punched with surprising force.

“You’re stupid!” You retort and he gives you a glare…

You two had a brawl after that, to which he won a few times till you took some low blows and hit him where the sun doesn’t shine…

It’s been four days since you’ve become a squire, a few other aspirants ranking up as well except your brother which pissed him off even more.

You’re preparing for your very first expedition with your knight, Knight Gerald, a real asshole that’s a bit reckless and it makes Maximus all the more worried. Especially since every squire he’s had is dead…

But knight Gerald would be meeting with another knight and his squire, knight Dorian, a more level headed knight but still an asshole, one that needs help with something, you weren’t told the details about.

“Look, if he’s in a situation where he’s being shot at, beaten up or anything dangerous, anything, do not try to jump in and save him! Even if he’s begging for help. He has power armor, not you—

“Max! Calm down…” You snap, giving him an annoyed look as he rambled to you as if you’re a child and not an adult.

Maximus sighs and you can see the worry and stress eating away at him and you soften your expression and pull your coat on.

“I’ll be fine, you know I’m capable of taking care of myself. I’ll be back before you know it” You say and put a hand on his shoulder as he stares at you unconvinced.

“I’m supposed to always be by your side…I promised I’d always take care of you and i can’t do that when we’re apart…” He spoke and you pull him into a hug he quickly returns, his cheek on your head as he rubs your back.

“Please don’t do anything stupid…” He mumbled and you close your eyes and smiled some at that, pulling back to look up at him.

“I can’t make any promises…” You joke and he rolls his eyes and looks away from you.

“That’s what scares me” He retorts and pinches your nose as you smack his hand away with a scowl.

Then you hear an Aspirant announce it’s time for you to leave and you nod, Maximus following you as you walk towards where your knight stands…

You lug around the big bag of supplies for your knight, meeting Maximus eyes before you get in the transport, watching Maximus before offering a nod as the doors closed and then your in the air, flying over the desert and towards filly…

You felt a sense of excitement and nervousness, you’ve never been away from your brother for long, you were told this expedition would take a week tops. You sigh and watch the passing scene below, your knight in his armor bragging about some past battles he’s had, telling you about women he’s had and you stared at him with furrowed brows at the…odd stories.

Before you know it, your landing in a green wooded area, you follow your knight out of the transport and trudge through mud behind him.

“Knight Dorian should be this way, The fuckheads too stupid to even complete a simple task! Go figure…” Knight Gerald spoke, power armor making his voice deep and distorted as you look around at the trees and such.

Knight Gerald huffs at your silence and keeps talking. “Probably held up somewhere dickin around, jerkin off probably…fuck do you even talk?” You stared at your knight and nod once.

“Yes, knight Gerald, I speak when the conversation is interesting” You say in your fake masculine voice. Not masking how annoyed you are by this dick.

Gerald stops walking and turns to you, making you stop in your tracks as he shoves you to the ground roughly.

You grunt and land on your back, staring up at him wide eyed as he looms over you intimidatingly. “Don’t fuckin talk to me like that, little boy…” He puts his metal foot on your chest and adds pressure, your hands instinctively grabbing to push him away in a pathetic attempt.

“I could end you right now, like every other squire who had the balls to say somethin that fuckin stupid to me” He moves his foot and turns to start walking as you laid there breathing heavily and your heart pounds.

You swallow thickly and grab your bag again and follow him, You know he could kill you easily, but your fear mixes with anger and I knew found hatred for this bastard.

At the top of the hill you finally make it up, you see a makeshift camp, old tin stacks on a tree and a couple of logs as you see knight Dorian and his squire.

But your heart drops as you narrow your eyes on the squire, The same guy who beat your brother up then gave you a black eye when you interfered.

“Thaddeus….” You grumbled as you drop your bag as the two knights engaged in conversation about this mission.

Thaddeus looks at you while he cleans his knights weapon. “Marcus? What are you doing here man?” You scoff at that and shake your head as you look back at the knights who walk a distance off, masks lifted as they spoke.

“I’m a squire…came here to do what you and your knight couldn’t” You retort and cross your arms and he huffs at that.

“Uh, me and my knight is doing just fine! Actually and uh…we only paged for help because there’s a lot of mutant bears down there that did a lotta damage to knight Dorian’s armor and our stuff” He points behind him and then goes back to cleaning his knights weapons.

You roll your eyes but feel somewhat anxious about what he said as you sit beside him. “What’s a mutant bear?…” You ask and he looks up at you, forgetting you’ve been sheltered the most.

“It’s terrifying, I’ll tell ya that much…” He says and looks the weapon over before scrubbing at a spec. “And they’re big…you don’t wanna get close to them” He adds and puts the weapon in his bag similar to yours.

You nod slowly and let out a deep breath, “they sound interesting…” you say sarcastically and look around at the trees again. “When did you get ranked squire?…” you ask and he shrugs as his eyes go back to the knights speaking to one another in hushed tones.

“Uh…a day after you did” he says and you both awkwardly sit there and you dig your boot into the mud before reaching down and playing with it, only ever having seen sand…

The knights had left without your knowledge, it’s only when you hear some noise and look up from the mud in your hand you notice and furrow your brows.

“Uh…Thaddeus?” You ask and he looks up at you then follows your eyes to the now empty place your knights were.

“Oh shit…where’d they go?…” He stands up and you do so as well confused as to where the knights are.

You look around, seeing nothing but trees, hearing rustles of whatever creature lurked in the brush. “Knights?! Knight Gerald!?” You call out and follow Thaddeus who takes off down the little dirt path they had been on. You look around as he puts his hands on his hips.

“Oh…Golly, I think we should wait back at the camp for them” You looked at the path, seeing their footprints left in the mud, then down the hill where brush is tore through.

“No, we gotta look for them, they could need a stimpak or help with something!” You argue and look at Thaddeus who pulls his brows together and shakes his head.

“If they needed us they would be calling for us and I don’t hear anything” Thaddeus points out but the distant yells of the knights and growls of mutant bears is heard.

You glared at him and quickly run to grab your bag before sliding down the hill as Thaddeus watches with wide eyes. “Marcus! You don’t know what you’re doing!” You hear him let out a surprised yelp as he slips and comes sliding down behind you, knocking into your back as you huff and fall face first into the mud.

“Ow! Get off me!” You elbow him and he groans before getting up.

“I’m sorry! It’s not like I did it on purpose, I was trying to get back into camp” You froze, staring at the scene before you.

Thaddeus however is oblivious to the scene and wipes mud off his cheek. “You’re insane for even coming down here, man. The knights have their cool power armor to protect them and what do us squires have uh? Nothin—

“Shush!!” You shush him and put a hand over his mouth and pulled him behind a rotten log, eyes wide and heart pounding as you peek over your shoulder at the mutant bear eating knight Gerald’s face.

You were screwed, Maximus was right about everything and now that he’s back with the brotherhood and far from you, you’d die out here.

“Awwe no…now look what you got us into! You’re just as stupid as your brother” Thaddeus whispers and you shoot him a glare and put your back against the log, squeezing your eyes shut as you think.

Trying to think how the hell you can get out of this situation.

You open your eyes and look back at the mutant bear and then at Thaddeus. “How fast are they?…” you ask and he looks you up and down with a huff.

“I don’t know, i haven’t seen one move” His answer makes you roll your eyes and look around the area your in…down a hill, slicked with mud. You can’t climb back up because of how wet it is out here.

Your screwed.

“You think we can run that way?” You pull your head towards the left, going further down the hill.

Thaddeus looks that way and then chances a look at the beast only for his face to pale. “Uh…Marcus?” You instantly catch on to his horror and look over the log to see the bear mutant gone..

“Shit….where—

Before you can finish, a thunderous roar breaks the silence and you screamed, caught of guard and letting out a rather girly scream but you didn’t dwell on that and take Thaddeus hand and pulled him with you to run further down the hill.

The fall is brutal, the hill too steep to run down so you and Thaddeus tumbled, rolled, and practically rag dolled down the damn thing.

The bear is left at the top, continuing to eat its dead meal while you and Thaddeus laid on the muddy ground battered and sore. You tore your clothes, your jacket gone somewhere up the hill as jagged sticks and old bobbed wired fence tore it off. The back of your white tee shirt tore and now tented with some blood and a lot of mud.

“Ow….” You whined and laid on your back, staring at the sky as Thaddeus groans and sits up. His cheek cut as he rubs at it.

“Is it gone?…” he asks and you sit up, palms digging into the ground as you propped yourself up and look up the hill.

“I think so…I don’t see it…” You fell right back into your masculine voice. Hoping thaddues wouldn’t question your scream.

But as he sits up on his knees and looks at you, his eyes fall down to your chest and widen some, before his brows pulled together at the…well, lumps there.

You look at Thaddeus with confusion before glancing down and seeing that your chest compressor was broke during the fall. Your eyes widen and you look back up at him.

You couldn’t let him know that you’re a woman, he’d rat you out to the brotherhood for praise. You knew how he was, you can feel the panic slowly clawing its way up your chest.

“I-I-I….uh…um…I have tumors….those are tumors…” You say slowly and very unconvincingly, hands raising to cover your breasts. It was the best lie you could think of.

Thaddeus stares at you with confused bewilderment before nodding and looking away. “I uh…didn’t know you had those—tumors! That’s…bad” He slowly gets to his feet and you do the same, his eyes glued to your breasts as you knew he knows…

“Fuck…listen…you can’t tell anyone, Thaddeus, please…” You step closer to him and he nods slowly and finally looks up at your eyes.

“I won’t…” he says slowly and his eyes go back down and you cover them with your hands.

“Hey! Stop doing that!” You yelled and he closed his eyes, shaking his head quickly as he honestly didn’t mean to.

“I’m sorry! It’s just—I’ve never seen em before! Up this close anyway…Y’know?…and your shirts wet and muddy and—

You cut him off with a kick to the shin as he stumbles back and grunts in pain, your face feeling hot beneath all the grime and mud. You look down and see how your shirt truly was clinging to your skin making them more visible.

“Shit….” You mumbled and look at Thaddeus as he leans on a tree. “Look, we need to focus getting out of this area…radio back to the brotherhood and get them to get us and bring us back…” He nods as you explained the plan and he rubs his leg before standing upright.

“Cool, I’ll radio back to them once I find somewhere to do it” He spoke and you nod as you both start walking now, cautiously given the dangers you’re still in. Your body still sore and you follow Thaddeus as he leads the way.

“H-have you been out here before?…” You ask and he nods some as you both walk, getting further out of the woods.

“Yeah…I came from the shit hole, have you?…” He asks back and you scoff at how he throws it back at you and surprisingly not yapping to you.

“No…when I was out here I was way too young to remember it…” You say and he nods as you both come to a settlement of sorts, some rough people lingering outside a supposed saloon of sorts, you ignore the odd glances of people and Thaddeus shrugs his coat off and hands it out to you.

“Your shirts ripped pretty bad…” He points out and you glance down and see the chest tore in the middle, a hole in the side and you can’t climb feel the back is tore out.

You take the coat and put it on and nod at his surprising kind gesture. “Thanks…” You mumble and look around. “Do you have any caps?…” You ask and he nods his head while you both walk up the ragged porch and into the saloon where they offer drinks and a meal…

“Yeah, I have eight I think…” He answered while you both sit at a table in the corner, resting your aching bodies after the tumble down the hill.

You closed your eyes, your left one still bruised from the brawl you got in a week ago…

“I’m sorry…for uh…punching you in the face. It wasn’t personal, i actually meant to punch Maximus but you just jumped in out of nowhere” You open your eyes as Thaddeus spoke and you huff, somewhat amused.

“It’s fine…” you say and close your eyes again as he taps the table gently, awkwardly as he looks you up and down still.

“You’re pretty brave for a woman…not that women aren’t brave because they are! The women in the shit hole were braver than most men! But I’m just saying that a woman like you is brave…” He rambled and you open your eyes with a deep sigh as you sit up.

“Thaddeus…can you shut the hell up please?…” You say and he nods while looking down as he scratches at the back of his neck.

“Yeah…” Then the both of you sit in silence, quiet conversation from most in the saloon is a somewhat comforting sound as you try to relax.

This expedition was off to a horrible start, you felt like you’ve already failed as a squire. Your knight is dead, Thaddeus figured out your a woman…

He pats the table and stands as you open your eyes and look at him once more. “I’m gonna go see if they have a radio we can use…I’ll be back” Before you can say anything he goes to find the owner of this establishment and you sigh. Not liking the looks some people give you.

You wished Maximus was here, you felt exposed, less confident than you previously had been. You can survive on your own, you knew that but it felt like you couldn’t…

You see a group of rough guys looking at you and your brows furrow, you look away and try searching for Thaddues who was talking to the owner, smiling as he gets a radio and uses it up there. You glance back at the guys discreetly as they seem to be whispering something and eyeing you…

Shit, you don’t have a weapon. You look back at Thaddeus who is still using the radio and you go to stand only to be grabbed by the taller slender man, his teeth rotten as he grins at you with yellowish eyes. Definitely not healthy….

“Ain’t seen you around here before…must be new” He rasps out and you swallow thickly and try pulling away.

“Let go of me” You spoke in your masculine voice, not wanting him to know your a woman.

He laughs and only tightens his hold as his two friends surround you now. “Bet you got goods on ya…” He says and his friend grabs your other arm and starts dragging you out as you kick and try to get free.

Maximus showed you out to get free, but all survival instincts vanish as your brain can only focus on how to panic it would seem.

“Thaddeus!! Help—

Your shoved out the doors and your face lands in the mud that smells like piss and vomit, your stomach turning at the smell as you feel a kick land into your ribs and you groan in pain.

“Check her pockets and see what she has” The slender man commands his two goons who start trying to steal whatever you have and you thrash around and kick and punch at them only to have the leaders boot press your cheek into the ground as he steps on your head.

“Hey! Hey, hey, hey! Guys! What’s goin on?!” You hear Thaddeus step out and they momentarily leave you be but your face is still held down, one cheek in the mud your starting to question as sewage while the other has a boot pressed into it.

One of the guys huff at that. “Is this your friend?…” A rough voice asks and you hear Thaddeus clear his throat.

“Yeah?…I can get you some caps if you get off her” He pulls out a pouch with fifteen caps in it and you huff, the bastard lied to you.

The guys laugh and Thaddeus pulls out some metal gadget. “Hey! You can have the caps and this! It sells for about fifty caps” The leaded gets off you and you scramble to your feet as Thaddeus gives them their stuff and look it over.

You scurry behind Thaddeus who surprisingly took care of the situation instead of running away or leaving you to die.

The guys take their shit and leave and you wipe the mud off your cheek, spitting as some was in your mouth. “Thanks…” You say and look up at him as he shrugs and looks you over.

“You saved me from that bear, you could have ran and let it eat me or something but you didn’t…so I guess we’re even now” He says and you smiled some at that and go back to sit on the old porch.

“Did you get the radio working?” You ask him, still wiping at your mouth with your arm. The damn taste stuck in your mouth, you can only imagine what the hell was in the mud.

Thaddeus nods his head as he looks up at the grey sky. “Yeah, I got in contact with the brotherhood so as long as we stay here they’re gonna get us…” You nod and look him over now. His cheek still cut and some dry blood there now.

“So uh…you really won’t rat me out will you?…” You didn’t trust him, even if he did just get you out of a situation.

“No, I won’t rat you out…” He says again and you sigh deeply as you wait for the brotherhood…

But hours pass, night falls and you’re still waiting. Thaddeus up and pacing as he stretches his legs out acting sitting for hours.

“Thaddeus where are they?…” you ask with annoyance as you were tired and wanted to be clean and tell Maximus everything that’s happened.

He sighs and puts his hands on his hips, “well, since it’s dark out they might wait till the morning to come…we can get a room or something to sleep in till then” You stand up with a scoff and shake your head at him.

“We don’t have caps, where the hell will we stay?” You question with attitude and Thaddeus takes his boot off, dumping at least ten caps out.

You stare at him with wide eyes. “Where the hell do you keep getting those from?!” You question and he scoffs some.

“My stash! This is really the last of it though” He says and picks the caps up as you walk down the shit path to another place. “We can buy a room for the night…” He says and you follow him inside and see an old man glaring at you both.

“The hell you two want?…” He asks and you observe him, he looks just as grime ridden as everyone else, face wrinkled and scruffy with white hair as his eyes are narrowed in a unfriendly way. his customer service horrible.

“Me and my friend need a room for the night…sign says nine caps” Thaddeus puts nine down and smiles at the man.

The old man grumbled and snatched them up before pointing at a wooden door behind you both, you furrow your brows as it looks disgusting in the room.

But you both walk in, it’s small, a bed and dresser in it. You kick your boots off and eye the bed with disgust. “It looks like someone died here Thad…” You say and he shrugs and takes his boots off and sits on the bed you’d both be sharing.

“Yeah, someone probably did…but it’s better than the ground” He says and you nod slowly even if you thought otherwise and take the jacket off, the underside of your breast visible and Thaddeus stares at it with wide eyes.

You don’t even notice as you walk to the dresser and look it over, seeing it empty and you sigh.

“Shit…oh no…” you hear Thaddeus mumble and his eyes are squeezed shut, he instantly throws a pillow on his lap and you give him a look of concern.

“Are you okay?….did the fall earlier hurt you bad?” you ask and he shakes his head frantically as he keeps his eyes closed and you walk over to sit next to him and he scoots away some.

“No! No..uh…just uh…put the jacket back on?” He said and you give him a confused look.

“Why?….” You say slowly and he huffs and as his eyes fall on you pleadingly, but feels his situation getting worse as your cleavage is visible from your ripped your shirt.

“Just please put it on…” He looks away again and swallows thickly as his eyes squeeze shut.

You were beyond confused and grab the coat and slowly put it back on. “Are you okay?…” you ask him again and he nods and sighed deeply.

“Your uh…um… ‘tumors’ just…make me feel weird” He knows the brotherhood teach absolutely nothing about situations like this. They educate on sensible things, important things but this not this.

So the confused look you give him makes him sigh deeply again as he looks at you. “It’s weird, I’m being weird….” He says and shakes his head as he stares at the wall. “You ever hear the stories the guys talk about? The knights?…” He asks, and you nod slowly getting an idea.

“The ones about kissing and stuff?” You inquired while he nods and sighed again, his situation not going away.

“Yeah…” he says and you slowly start piecing it together. You heard stories about kissing, some of the knights laughed and bragged about screwing people but Maximus always steered you away from that topic. Especially when they said something about their cocks exploding.

You stare at Thaddeus and scoot closer again but he doesn’t pull away…

“Do you like…wanna kiss or something?” You ask and he stares at you with wide eyes as he looks your face over, he found himself oddly attracted to you more then he was before.

He nods and discreetly pushed the pillow down more in an attempt to get his erection in control but it only makes it worse…

“I don’t know how to…” He admits quietly and you scoot so that your legs touch and you nod knowingly.

“I don’t either…but I guess we’ll figure it out together” You stare at his face as he does yours and you don’t move…it’s awkward and he clears his throat.

“So my mouth just…” He leans in and you do the same, your noses touching as you pull back and tilt your head some and place a quick peck on his lips. Too quick to actually feel.

He leans in to peck you again but longer and you let him. His lips felt soft…and he pecks you again and again as you slowly hold his jaw as you too keep slowly pecking.

He doesn’t know if it’s right, but you kept doing it and that was enough to have his face flushing red.

It has your heart pounding, heat pooling in your belly as your eyes close and you two kept pecking each others lips. His little mustache tickles your skin as you too start taking longer to pull back with each kiss, his lips staying on yours longer as he groans into it.

“You’re making it harder to get rid of this, Marcus…” He pulls back with furrowed brows and looks at you. “Wait…you’re a girl…is Marcus even your name?…” He asks and you let out a soft amused snort at that, face hot from just having your first kiss with him.

“No…” you say and tell him your real name, his eyes soften as he whispers it quietly.

“Can we kiss again?…” You smirk some and start kissing him, instinctively doing whatever feels right or nice…which is currently how your tongue ends up with his, his whimper music to your ears as you feel heat blooming between your thighs.

Thaddues just let you lick around in his mouth, his tongue not doing anything because he wasn’t sure what to even do…

It’s a foreign feeling, almost overwhelming as you push his pillow away and get on his lap before he can even object. “Wait!—oh…” He moans as you sit on his bulge, his hips twitching up.

“Don’t tell the brotherhood I’m actually a woman and I’ll keep going….” You don’t know where this sudden spark of boldness came from but you feel it, especially when his hips jerk up.

“I swear! I won’t tell anyone! I won’t even think about it!” He says quickly and you feel his hands land on your hips, pulling you closer as his eyes closed and he slowly rolls his hips up into yours.

“Oh my…oh shit that’s nice…” He rambles out as you feel your heart beating faster and you let him control your movements, your own hips grinding down and you feel sparks shooting up your spine.

“Thad….” You whisper his name, a soft moan escaping your lips as you felt yourself getting wet from this, especially when you feel him move, a twitch?…

“Oh…shit wait, wait, wait…don’t move!” You stop instantly and furrow your brows as he pants and stops moving as his face is flushed red, lips parted as he moans quietly.

“Is everything okay?…” you ask quietly and rub his chest, feeling his heart beating as fast as your own. Your body buzzing with arousal while between your legs feels like molten lava.

“Yeah…too okay…like, like I’m gonna explode y’know?…” You nod slowly as he spoke between breathes as you rubbed his chest.

“Is your cock gonna explode?” You ask, genuinely curious as this was all too knew for you.

And you feel his hips jerk up as his erection twitches again. “Don’t say that! Not right now…oh shit…” He lets your hips go and puts his palms on the bed on either side of him.

You furrow your brows and slowly start moving, grinding because you need some friction, knowing he needs it too. Thaddeus lets out a beautiful sound, a moan and whine, his eyes closed as he starts bucking up.

“Shit, shit, shit…fuck!” His hips twitch as he fists the sheets and moans out, you feel him convulsing beneath you and his back hits the bed as he whimpers and pulls you off his lap. His trousers having a wet patch where he just came…

“I’m sorry…i-I didn’t mean to do that! You made me do it…” He rambled and pants before groaning and dropping his head back on the bed. “Awwe man…now my pants are sticky and gross…” He says, as if they’re not caked in shit and mud already.

You move off his lap and still feel an aching sensation between your legs as you fold your legs under you and look at him.

“They’re already dirty….” You point out and he nods before taking them off, his underwear and shirt still on. Your eyes locked in on his boxers where you can see he’s still hard.

He looks at you and blushes deeply as he grabs the pillow to cover himself but you snatch it. “Thaddues…?” You say and look at him inquisitively.

He hums in response and can’t even look at you right now. “Yeah?….”

You only ever heard some knights talk about this, using words like ‘use my cock’ or ‘that whore made my cock explode!’ And then the one you remember hearing the most from knight Gerald ‘we did sex and that bitch rode me like a rocket!’ So you slowly crawl back on his lap and he furrows his brows now.

“Can we do sex?…” You ask and his eyes widen as you ask, knowing what you mean and he swallows thickly.

He starts nodding eagerly and your already taking your pants off, your panties wet as you take them off as well and watch him laying on his back watching you with a red face and big blue eyes wide.

He nearly whimpered when you get completely naked for him, he can’t even believe you’re real and this is actually happening to him…

You take his boxers off and you blush, never having seen a cock up close like this…he blushes even more and whimpered. It was five and a half inches at most, girthy as it twitches some when you just stare at him in fascination.

“Please…please, please, please…I need you…” He begs and you felt a new wave of heat rushing to your core as you take your underwear off as well.

You may be very inexperienced, but you heard enough stories to know what to do. So you straddle him again, and sit on his thighs as your hands are on his chest.

Your body feels warm, a buzz lighting all your nerves on fire in the best way possible as you look down at Thaddeus who has his shirt on still and doesn’t plan on taking it off. His eyes wide and nervous but pleading for something…

You scoot closer and can feel yourself getting hot, your face burning. You gently grind on him, your bare skin touching and you moan as he feels warm and hard under you.

“Holy—fuck….your…your so wet….” He spoke as if he was in awe of you, which he probably was as you just grind on him and get his cock all wet.

You let out a soft breathy sound and keep going, hands in his chest fisting his shirt as you gaze down at him with half lidded eyes and desire.

“Does it feel good?…” You ask and hope he feels as euphoric as you do right now, your hips slowly moving against him and he nods and whines.

“Yes! Shit yeah….” He was breathing heavy again and you moan quietly as he grips your hips. “Can I go inside you?…” he asks and gives you a begging look, one you found yourself not ever going to say no to.

So you nod and reach down between you both, Looking momentarily as you guide him inside. His tip slips in and you both moaned at how intense it was.

“Thaddeus!….” You moaned out as you slowly slide down, so wet it hardly hurts like you’ve heard it would…

Thaddues was flushed red and sweaty already as you gaze down at him. “I’m gonna explode again…ah..ah please…” He begs as you start moving, feeling a slight stretch but it felt nice.

You move up and down, repeating it slowly as the drag of his cock against your spongy walls was absolutely electric, intoxicating as you never wanted it to end. “This feels so good Thaddeus…” You say breathlessly as you look down at him.

And good god if the sight wasn’t breathtaking. His blue eyes blown with need, lips parted as he pants and whines when you move down just right, his chest heaves beneath your hands as you subconsciously start going a little faster.

You can hear the old bed squeaking, creaking as you both move together. Thaddeus was moving his hips up into you and pulling you down by your hips, his hips moving at an unsteady and almost desperate way as he pants.

“Oh yeah…r-right…right there!” His voice is higher in pitch and eyes closed as he fucks up into you quickly now.

You moan out as you grasp his shirt and let him keep doing those sloppy movements because it feels good, your walls clenching repeatedly as you felt yourself slipping closer to something absolutely mind numbing.

“Thaddeus….” You spoke so breathlessly and it has his head spinning, The pleasure becoming intense and his hands grip harder on your hips.

You are practically bouncing on him now as he lets out more noises of pleasure, your eyes closed and back arches from how incredible it actually is. Before you even know it, he’s tensing again as you felt the pressure that had been building up finally snap and you shake when you finally came.

It was intense, your eyes closed as you moan and convulse on Thaddeus, nails digging into his chest as your hips move in quick flicks, riding out the waves of pure pleasure.

“Holy shit! Ah!” Thaddues lets out a loud groan as he came after, his hips stuttering as he trembles beneath you, rambling sweet nothings and how good you feel…

Afterwards, You lay on his chest, heart’s beating wildly together as he rubs your back soothingly. Your blissed out, both of you are and as you lift your head and look at him, you felt a fluttering in your chest at the sight of him.

He’s actually cute…despite being an asshole to your brother and punching you in the face, his eyes meet yours, his a beautiful blue.

Shit, you can’t think like this about him, he’s a dick! Maximus will kill you!

You sit up and lay on your side, back facing him as he furrows his brows and props himself up on his elbows. “You alright?…i didn’t hurt you did I? Was it bad? Did I do something wrong?!” He starts rambling and you sighed and feel guilty for putting space between you two.

“No, you didn’t hurt me or do anything wrong…I’m just tired now” You say back and cringe at your own attitude and hear him lay back down and sigh.

“Alright, I’m pretty tired too…after all we just did” He chuckles awkwardly and lays down and puts his hands on his belly. “I should put my pants back on right?…” He asks and you furrow your brows as he basically talks to himself.

“I totally should…I will” He gets up and your turn to face him now and watch as he does so, groaning as he rubs at the crotch. “I completely forgot about that…” You shake your head and smile some, he was odd but you found yourself gazing at him fondly.

He grumbles about the mess on his pants before putting them on and laying back down, seeing you staring at him he blushes.

“I thought you’d be asleep now?…” He says and you shake your head and sigh.

“I don’t think anyone falls asleep in seconds…” You say and he nods slowly and lays back down on his back, hands folded on his belly.

You watch him get comfortable as he sighs softly and stares at the ceiling. “Everything was good for you right?…” He asks again and you can see he’s actually genuinely wondering if you enjoyed it as much as he did.

So you give in, snuggling to his side as you nod. “Yeah…it was good” He smiles some and puts an arm around you.

“Wanna do it again?…” He peeks down at you and you look up to catch his eye, feeling that familiar heat pooling in the depths of your belly.

“Yeah…” You say and he gets on top of you, kissing you very uncoordinatedly and sloppy but you love it, his messy kiss and little words mumbled in between.

“Dang it…now i gotta take my pants back off…” you can’t help but laugh at that a bit, watching as he fiddles with the buttons…

The midday sun bleeds through dirty torn curtains and you were already up, standing by the rooms dirty window and tightening your chest compressor that’s old cloth tied tightly, but it was better then nothing you suppose. Then you slip on an old button up shirt the old man who owns this place gave you, hearing the brotherhood approaching in their planes.

Behind you is Thaddeus, hair disheveled, a grin on his face as he puts his boots back on. Pleasantly pleased from a night full of pleasure.

You button your shirt and tuck it in and leave the room, Thaddeus making haste to get his shirt on before following behind you. You both walk outside and you see the brotherhood, a knight and squire surveying the area as they lead you both back, Thaddeus explains the whole situation as you board the transport…

The flight back to the only thing you know as a home is rather silent, Thaddeus giving you glances, staying silent about you being a woman. You felt glad he didn’t say anything, Both of you sitting opposite each other…

You don’t say much after what happened between you both, So when you finally get back you instantly start searching for your brother but find Dane, a somewhat friend you’ve made and see they’re foot bandaged.

“Where’s Maximus?…” You ask Dane, who shrugs as you look around the room now.

“He’s gone…” Your eyes widen at this information, hands on your head as you try and process that. Now you’re worried about him, especially with the beasts you know are out there now…

“What do you mean he’s gone? Did he rank up to squire too?” You huff and Dane shakes their head slowly as you furrow your brows. “He’s gone gone…” You felt your heart plummet and you know it shows on your face the shock and pain you feel.

“Knight Titus made the report this morning…they’re sending in a squire to replace him…” Dane adds and you march away, storming to Elder Cleric Quintus.

Max couldn’t be dead, he just can’t be. He’s the toughest person you know.

You hold back tears as you storm and kneel before Cleric Quintus. Who simply looks down at you from where he sits. “Marcus…I’m assuming you’ve heard the news—

“Send me. Send me to assist knight Titus…” You look up at the man who shakes his head, knowing better than to send you. You’ve just came back from a failed expedition…

“I already have someone in mind to send…I know this is glum time for you and you need to mourn in peace” He says and you stand and glare at him.

“Send me to assist knight Titus, please…” You add the last part bitterly, pain mixing with anger at how your brother died probably doing what he warned you not to do, protecting a knight.

Elder cleric Quintus stares at you and waves of the squire he had picked to assist Titus. “Very well, but given your emotional state and devastation…another squire will accompany you” You hear Thaddeus push past some people and raise his hand.

“I’ll go! I can help Marcus!” You glanced at him as he nods some at you before looking back at Quintus.

“Very well…you’ll both replace Maximus…” Quintus spoke the words as if it was distasteful to think your brother is actually gone, and he goes back inside as you nod and turn to Thaddeus who gives you a sort of sympathetic look.

But you ignore him and push past to get back into the transport…

You plan on finding him, to give him a proper burial and beating knight Titus to a bloody pulp for letting your brother die…it hurts to even think about him being gone…