i would really like to be eloquent but neither of us are and we of course have to make due in any way that we both can so im sorry this is not going to be very great at all or very inspirational because even back when i was considered a good student or someone who would have a future i was never very good at words and as you are finding out i was also never very good at expressing how i feel and what only i, and not others who try to influence me, believe to be true