#terra02

This is Yogurt. Yogurt the Possum.

Yogurt hopes you have a very productive day/night.

@goops-art You asked to be tagged. I cant figure out anyone else to tag in this hahaha... ihopethisisthesameperson. @bamsara you might get a kick out of them too.

So these are my Van's I custom painted them with acrylic paint and put a protective layer over it. The light colors on here I didn't brighten with white rather I used folk art glitter paint cause it was already white. Also used glow in the dark paint as another good color mixer. So it glitters like how Sun would want it, and it glows in the dark in places for moon.

This was a kinda tricky project but I tested it on another pair of shoes but I painted fruits on them. If anyone's interested in seeing them let me know.

If you decide to paint your own shoes and never did it before PRACTICE on similar material before buying expensive ass shoes like I did.

I spiraled down a rabbit hole of depression and anxiety like no other. I've always had it but this was worse.

But I realized... yes they hurt me... but what I do with these emotions are my own doing. I had to pull back.

I cut out toxic family... I was discovered by lost family.. imagine being in your 20's and your MIA uncle just discovered you exsist! How crazy??

Then you ask more family about your childhood only to be verified by them that your past really was that messed up.

I gave myself a moment to mourn the younger me that was robbed of a decent childhood. But then I stepped forward.. something 2020 me couldn't do.

2020 me was drowning in pain and misery while 2023 me has only walked forward.

I can acknowledge that my trauma is valid, while also accept my own wrong doings. I can break down and find the words to describe my traumas, while also able to reflect and realize how messed up some of my life choices are.

And yeah, It hurts. It sucks... but I dont wallow in that anymore. I dont just swim in it till I'm drowning. I know when to climb out for a rest.

I really wanted to share with someone my accomplishments over this. This has been one hell of an up hill battle for myself.

I still have a long ways to go. A very VERY long ways to go. I have toxic mindsets I need to work on, I have to deconstruct my sense of humor as some of it isn't very good. I need to work on expressing my feelings, and not be an asshole.

But for now... im glad I've made progress becoming kinder to myself.

I do have this community to thank as well. Sometimes you guys make me realize something that makes me self-reflect. From the wonderful fanfics with impacting moments, to the lovely fan art, all the way to the wonderful one on one DMs I've had.

You guys have helped me, even in a small way.