#telluswhatyoureallythink

So I overheard my sister and her girlfriend talking tonight. They were discussing the fact that I’m still upset about losing my pregnancy. I had said to my sister yesterday that even though I have all these troubles with BPD, I still think I would make a better mother than my cousin - she has the emotional range of a teaspoon (a quote from Harry Potter I think?). Apparently my sister disagrees. I shouldn’t be surprised. My family barely accept that I am capable of looking after myself, let alone a child. But I am better at looking after other people than I am myself. But perhaps that’s the problem. I couldn’t look after us both. Then what would happen to us? But what if I could? Guess we won’t be finding out just yet. But notice I’m still missing the loving and caring part of a supportive family? No word from my so-called best friend either. I’m beginning to think they don’t actually believe me. That I’ve made it all up in my strange, incomprehensible borderline brain. That would be convenient for them wouldn’t it?

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thank you gillian