Without you I am like a train without the tracks, I'm basically stuck in the same place you left me at. The underlying factor is that I need to move on, but where do I go?
I was meant to reach my destination with you, none of it works without you because everything we envisioned was for us two. And now I've lost my path, I'm still trying to figure things out, the vacant space you left behind cannot be filled.
The hardest thing about trying to move on is that I not only have to forget about the past but also I need to forego a future that we were building. Nothing lasts forever, I've heard that saying multiple times over the course of life, but no matter how many times I hear that I can never prepare for the end. I always try my outmost best to prolong it, try to save every little piece that's left in hopes to go back to the glory days.
I tried everything to keep you, and there were moments where we were almost us again. But I guess ultimately you wanted to be you without me, you wanted to erase everything that was.
While I thought of all the good things that made you and me us, you were thinking about all the bad things that happened between us and that was your exit strategy. I can't fault you for wanting to leave and start something new, a clean slate of sorts, but I guess I'm just so in love with you that I just want to express my feelings somewhere, since I can no longer express them to you.
You have someone new in your life now, and he is the one who gets to live a future with you, I hope he knows how much of a lucky man he is. But then again he probably does know because he spends time with you. All I can say now is thank you for the memories that I so cherish, appreciate all the time we spent together.
My chapter with you is my most precious moments in life, there has been bad decisions made during the course of our existence and I truly am sorry for all of it, sometimes what we think is the right thing to do is actually just misinformed decisions.
I could say maybe in another life we will get our future, but I know that is just wishful thinking, I love you for eternity and I'm glad I got the chance to experience a person like you in this lifetime.
