January 2
Well christmas has come and gone and I survived! I took 2 days off tracking (i was still mindful of what i ate, i just didnt weigh and track) I didnt gain any weight, i didnt blow up like a ballon (i did feel very lethargic when i worked out the next day, my strength was quite as good as normal) but that was back to normal in a few days. When a person lets go of the fear of what will happen if our ‘diet’ isnt followed to the letter its amazing how little it actually affects our bodies! The fear of the food is the main thing that does the damage! Food should NOT be feared! It should be enjoyed and savored and can be used as a tool to our benefit. Not as something to be scared of.
Now that being said…. Since i have committed to doing this photoshoot im starting to notice my scrutiny of my check in photos is getting a lot more…. intense. Not scrutiny from my trainer but myself judging my pictures. i find im saying things like “oh my stomach still hangs over there, my calves have no definition, still no cap on my shoulders” where as i used to look at my pictures and think “yay im not fatter hahaha” I think this may be something i will need to keep in check and if it gets worse i may need to re evaluate my 'why’ for doing this photo shoot.
I started the first couple of weeks just enjoying seeing any kind of change, big, small, not at all. Just enjoying the process. Now im fearing it is getting to my head in a bad way.
Pray and keep going:)
