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Well, the tears haven’t dried yet, as I am writing this and the first gush of emotions are often the most honest and unfiltered and raw, so those are all the things this post will be, I just hope I can be coherent enough to piece all of my first impressions of the finale in  here.

I will, obviously, watch it again. Maybe I will start from season 1 and re-watch all of it again. I will be nitpicky then and I will be unhappy with some things maybe but for now, I hurt in the most wonderful way, if that makes sense, as I just finished with the finale. ‘Supernatural’ has been such a gigantic part of my life for so many years now and I feel so grateful for that one friend who introduced me to these two boys, all those years ago. To be honest, I have felt let down by the writers several times in the past seasons but there are so many things I love about this finale and I am eternally grateful for them. Onto the good things…

To begin with, I adore adore adore Sam so much, too much sometimes. I feel protective of him and I look up to him and I was so glad that the show gave him the life that he had always thought he wanted, the life that his mother had wanted him to have, the life that Dean wanted him to have. Am I sorry about Dean dying and them not ending up in some cosy senior citizens home together, like they had once planned to? Yes. But I am happy that Sam will have one less regret when he finally passed on. He tried the 'normal’ which had kept slipping through his fingers. And I am happy that Dean got the usual, regular hunter’s death. Hunters die in freakish mishaps; it need not always be an apocalypse- averting death. Dean died trying to save people and to hunt things. It is very much a glorious and honourable death, especially without Chuck’s puppet mastery at play. Of course, I still bawled my eyes out and I will bawl my eyes out every time I watch this final death of Dean Winchester because, guess what, I adore him too, so much, too much sometimes. And when that blasted metal spike went through his chest, I knew this was it and I felt like raging because why would you separate the two of them? But the love, the sheer love between these two characters- I don’t think I can ever encompass in words the magnitude of what these two share between them- in this scene! 'Supernatural’ is nothing but a celebration of this violent, bloody, messy, powerful, pure, true Love between the two Winchester brothers. Dean has proved, over and over again, in his narrative, to be the lead-commander of the League of Sam Winchester Admirers, has he not? So he says he’s proud and he says he loves Sam so much and he asks Sam to stay with him and he knows he will be in Sam’s heart everyday for as long as they stay apart, because obviously they would meet again.

And the scenes in Dean’s heaven are some of the most beautiful things this show has ever given us, IMO. When he shares a beer with Bobby and declares that this is almost perfect and Bobby just knows why it’s not perfect. “He’ll be along.” Bobby says and you know Dean’s peace of mind is yet to come. I loved the montage of Dean driving and Sam living out his life- the two of them hurtling, rushing closer and closer to one another. Time works differently in heaven and I’d like to think that Dean was separated from Sam for just about the time it took for him to take a long, leisurely drive with Baby. So they meet on that bridge. Had I wanted a final 'jerk/bitch’ exchange? Nah. It was perfect. I already knew what was in store for the two of them. They would admire the view from the bridge and they would go back to their place. Sam would make breakfast and Dean would be a slob. Sam would kick the washing machine and Dean would be elbows- deep in soap suds at the sink. Some days, they would visit friends and family and some days it would be just the two of them. Together. Forever. At peace.

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My jaw dropped open, quite literally, when two of my favourite Sam avatars made their appearance in one episode (12.04)! Maybe, I’ll talk in detail about the sheer gorgeousness that Sam is in the new episodes sometime later. For now…

Priest Sam, it’s good to see you again. You had charmed me so bad in season 1. I am happy to inform you that you are still as sinfully attractive as ever.

And Cardigan Sam, you are the stuff of dreams (and warm loins), man! Miss the glasses, though. Keep up the good work, folks at spn, and especially Jared!

Love,

“I never could fool you, could I?”

Lucifer is the master manipulator. Clever and slippery like a serpent, he tricks or seduces people to have his way with them. Promising worlds but serving only himself, he plays upon men’s desires, fears, inadequacies, insecurities.

So I imagine it must be doing some serious damage to his ego because a human keeps outwitting him. The Lucifer-Sam exchange in the cage is another highpoint in Sam’s characterization.

First off, the sheer panic Sam must have felt being returned to that place where he had endured centuries of terrible, unspeakable tortures! I literally can’t even.

Then Lucifer tries everything: guilt tripping and oily flattery, the tempting prospect of defeating Amara that had lured Sam to the cage in the first place. All he gets is a quiet, firm ‘No’. When Sam decides that the devil’s simply not worth his time, I couldn’t help but remember something Lucifer (masquerading as John) had said to him in a vision earlier this season [11.04, Baby]:

“I never could fool you, could I?”

At the time, the words were probably an expression of Lucifer’s sarcasm. Or of his exasperated respect. You never know with this guy. In retrospect however, they become some of the truest words ever spouted by the father of lies. Because Sam sees right through his bullshit here.

In a most impressive display of Faith, intelligence and balls of steel, Sam Winchester summarily foiled the devil’s plans (of returning topside in his one true vessel) again. I am so so proud.

The Winchester brothers have distinctly different aptitudes with regards to supernatural entities.

Sam gets possessed by some.

Dean forms bonds with some.

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Sam’s speech in the hospital is fast becoming my favourite quote from the show ever. It was brilliant of him to remind Dean about their original mission statement in its entirety. For his part, Sam has always been more invested in the saving rather than the hunting. The calmness of his words belies their intensity. He was beautiful in his conviction, and even bossy big brothers know better than to bark orders when Sammy gets that way.

There’s an interesting fallacy in Sam’s ‘saving all the people’ argument though. Dean was in favour of cutting their losses. Sam believes nobody is expendable. Except himself. Therefore, he stays behind to find the cure and be the zombie-bait so Dean and company can have a safe passage.

In other words, Sam is back to doing what he does best: take accountability for his actions and channel the resultant guilt single-mindedly into making things right. His tunnel vision, while it invariably gets the job done, always has me worried about his general well-being. I was not surprised when he got infected in the very next scene but come on! The guy just escaped decapitation at the hands of his brother.

In the wise words of so many before me, Sam Winchester cannot catch a break.

P.S. - Crowley participating in an orgy with two men and another woman, while himself in a woman’s body, was a hoot.

P.P.S. - So was Sam finding Dean asleep in a field of flowers.

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Thank you for this.

Finally got to cure a demon.

Delivered some of the sassiest parting shots ever. [My favourite? ‘This is me yanking your lame ass out of the fire. You’re welcome.’]

Kept up with the routine badassery- werewolf hunts, salt & burn, whatnots.

Saved the life of a devoted fan!

Worked like a textbook support system for big brother.

Mentored a hunter wannabe.

Assembled an efficient but unusual rag tag bunch for the most elaborate tattoo removal procedure in the history of mankind.

Helped the King of Hell get over his identity crisis.

Agreed to die for the sake of Dean and the world. Again.

Set the stage for another potentially apocalyptic big bad. Season 11 here we come!

‘A lot of people got it worse.’

 This got me through some difficult times. Sam was struggling with the aftershocks of centuries of hellish tortures when he found the conviction to say such a thing. Coming from anybody else in a similar position, this statement would probably sound fake or melodramatic. But I knew that Sam is far too earnest to give out platitudes, especially to someone as perceptive as Bobby. Considering all that, my own cross seemed much lighter to bear. It encouraged me to stop complaining and start working to clear the mess.

Thank you Sam for giving me one of the biggest lessons in positivity, using just seven words.

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