#tblr

Hey long time no see👋

Life nowadays is no less than a roller coaster ride but this time it's an emotional roller coaster, I've found myself crying, yearning, accepting, cheerful, scared, courageous, longing, all sorts of feelings all at the same time… it's too much for my little brain and heart.

I hug myself tightly every time. I tell myself it's okay every time. (I'm doing better, I need to do better).

I'm working, on myself. I'm building myself from the scratch. From rock bottom. Without any filter or curtain, for the first time in my life I'm willing to show up in front of myself, the world.

Embarrassed, scared, anxious…every self of mine. I'm willing to put it forward.

I've started holding myself up each time. This time i promise not to abandon myself no matter what.

Destruction before creation is impossible,

Death before life is bizzare.

Now the sky feels more beautiful. The air feels lighter, and the world around me seems as if it was always waiting—quietly welcoming me back, patiently waiting for me to step out of my shell and walk alone with full presence.

I could feel everything. And somehow, more than everything. Feelings that were never mine to carry, yet I found myself deeply intertwined with them, as if I belonged to every passing moment.