I just want my best friends here. I need Luis here, and I need Tatum here. I just need a hug. I'm so tired of crying myself to sleep every fucking night. It wasn't like this before. But now the only words my mom can seem to think up are "You can't run to Tatum or Luis now, they're 8 hours away." And it just makes it hurt that much worse because it makes it feels like they just left all over again times 10,000. And I'm so tired of my own mother being the one that twists the knife. I'm trying. Tatum, I'm trying so hard, I promise. But it's so hard when everything I want is everything she hates. And I know I say all the time that I'll do it with or without her, but honestly, I'm terrified it'll be without her. Guys I just really miss you. I really just want my best friends. And I really really need a hug.
