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Recently, I’ve been re-listening to songs from my self-titled album, and also had someone come up and say to me, “I’ve been listening to your self-titled album. I really like ‘Myself’.”

Well, it comes with all kinds of memories bringing up some very complicated feelings, but I feel sort of sorry, thinking “Come to think of it, I haven’t put any kind of closure to these songs.” Just disappearing without doing a live concert or anything.

When I’d first released that album I felt embarrassed, because more often than not, I was seen as a voice actor, - it’s a feeling that I have even now.

When it was proposed that I release a self-titled album, I, who still didn’t have anything to show for myself at the time, resisted to the very end, telling the music label and my agency, “But I entered the agency with this name because I want to act.”

Afterwards, the CD was released anyway so I guess I wasn’t very persuasive.

Everything has changed since then. My environment, time, me. Heck even the Chinese Zodiac has made a full cycle.

Right now, I’m in America for an OLDCODEX concert. It’s something that I couldn’t even dream of back then.

And as I look around this American scenery, I’m listening to both OCD and my old songs. It’s fun to hum along.

Right now, the time’s 1:50pm.

You’ve come a long way, baby. 

Taking in the time you debuted at 18 years old, 15 years in the making and I wouldn’t have you any other way. 

Many things kinda went down, but hey, it was loads of fun.

But for me it was also a performance that showed me the things that I need to work on.

We saw it through and had a great time but there’s still a lot ahead of us.

We can still keep going.

It’s up to me to go beyond the awesome time that was today.

Because of our audience, I want to keep moving forward.

I’m gonna do my best. Thank you. 

Tatsu is the type of guy, who I think will keep doing his best even if you don’t tell him to. 

I will be appearing on one of my sempai’s show.

He’s a person who I really respect, someone who expresses his manners and how to get work done without any words.  The influence he has on me is seriously mind blowing. 

I’ll make sure to be a kouhai that he can be proud of.

Alright, off to do my best.

I notice I have very little to spare.

But I usually notice it as I’m spilling something over and asking myself “Why?” at the same time as I desperately try to pick it up. 

And then feel a large amount of regret.

Having no leeway and being in a situation where I feel like there’s no choice but to do it are both nothing but bad influences for me at this time.

It’s not like I want to become an adult.

I just really wish that I can be a man who can protect something important to me.

Gonna go give it my all.

Kanto is having some comfortable, fine weather. 

But because I went for a morning run, my body feels like it’s in the middle of summer.

I’ve got plenty of fighting spirit. 

Tokyo is getting some winter like air pressure and I’m beginning to see winter on the horizon. 

And when I think of how you can see the autumn leaves depending on the region, I let my imagination run free, thinking of how nice it would be to drink some warm sake while admiring them. 

Perhaps I did too much headbanging, because I’m now suffering from a pleasant bout of muscle pain. 

Today, I have a fun filled schedule consisting of rhythm recording, dubbing and vocal recording.

It’s been a consecutive few days of going back and forth between acting and music. 

I get so much motivation from it all. 

I’ll be taking part in a picture book reading for a radio show called “Apollon” on Tokyo FM.

It’ll be from 8/24 until 8/27.

Allow me to reminisce here for a moment.

When I was young, I remember often pestering my mom to read me picture books. My mom read books to me, who wasn’t good at reading at the time, with the wish that her son can become someone who would read books.   Because I enjoyed those times, I started to like picture books and would read a number of them in a week, so perhaps all that effort was worth it. 

And I remember there was a time that whenever I would go to some place like the library, the staff would read books to us, kids.

The thing is, I never would have expected - growing up and working, that I would be in a position like this where I am the one reading picture books out loud.

To me, picture books are memories. 

So to think that a young someone out there might listen to and remember a story that I read makes my small bit of happiness grow stronger.

My reading time where it’s me reading a story to “someone” and not playing a “role.” I hope that you enjoy it. 

source: http://tatsuhisasuzuki.sakura.ne.jp/diary/?p=2733 

I always enjoyed reading time as well... when one of the teachers would read a story out loud for us. There was something so comforting about it.