#talspeaks

"Trying" freaked me out.. I fucked up things and end up realizing that it isn't the "right time" yet. And what's important is that I am ready if ever he come along. I want the next one to be way different.. but I won't wait because it'll be a SURPRISE and it will be worth it... in time. Tiwala lang =)

Kris B. (@krispibar)

Tandaan: Mayroon ngang mga bagay na kahit na hindi natin hinihingi, kusang ibinibigay sa atin. Ganun din yung ibang bagay, kahit ayaw mo, hindi mo ginusto o hindi mo pinangarap na mangyari, yun pa yung nangyayari. Hindi sa lahat ng oras, kung ano ang gusto mo, yun yung mapapasayo. May mga bagay na kahit ayaw mo, kailangan mong bitiwan kasi yun yung best thing to do. Kahit masakit, nakakapanghinayang, sayang, o mahirap gawin. Isipin mo: BASTA KAILANGAN.

Chances are... always on my way. It's just that I rather choose to miss it than grab it. I seriously don't know what I want for myself when we talk about "love life". I seldom wish to God for me to have that one person who will love me as much as I love him and who will never ever let me go. I don't because I believe that He will give him to me when the right time comes. Right timing where it's the only thing left that I will be wishing for. Though my friends', cousins', brothers' relationship makes me feel insecure for it lasts with them, I know that someday, I too. Maybe it's just that I am not yet ready to settle down into a relationship once more. I want the next one to last more than my past, greater, better and different. Chances are... too good to have. Friends would say, "You're not over your Ex yet. That's why." But for me? Well, I deserve to have one but maybe it needs a little "rejuvination" on my part. I need to learn to love my self first, have fun with my own clever whims for I am the only one who knows what I want to do and what I want to have, I need to know myself better    and figure out if I really need someone right now whom will I share an intimate relationship with. I am still thinking of something to change.. it is either the looks, body shape, whims, lifestyle, anything. I need a new character which represents the real me, the new and improved me who has new experiences and a wider world. Well, chances are... though I missed it many times, it's not bad to take the risk of grabbing it when I'm ready. Because CHANCES are just chances, they are uncertain. I need to be sure of it first because I grab it. :)

I miss Ilocos, I miss my Mom, I miss my Barbie(dog), I miss my BFFs, I miss H2O, I miss YOU ❤

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