#talktotext

I guess nothing will remove the pain of racism aside from fucking confronting it. I just had a friend. Tell me they think Black people should go back to the end of the bus to learn some manners or whatever. I think she might’ve said it to upset me. unfortunately, I’m not sure, this friend is one of the few people who unconditionally accepts me for who I am. I can see basically anything like I went to a therapist so I’m gonna do my best to understand her and not judge. I think she was abused or had some traumatic experience with a group of black men so I’m gonna try to understand her history Instead of alienating myself from her or isolating. I think there can be healing here. It’s like that one Ted talk guy who got the KKK dude to leave. Just keep the conversation open, and we don’t do that a lot.

It’s like my NIA Andrew something who was on the campaign trail with Martin Luther King. Yeah, you know they when they integrated the south they have white and Black people sit across from each other and tell each other their stories. Their stories of racial trauma, or whatever in this created a bonding and put people on equal Plainfield and people could develop a sense of empathy in lacking, impotence and probably community connection whatever the fuck. So

I actually the N-word has been coming up a lot in my art poems wraps whatever music and I think it’s because of my ancestral trauma, cause there’s a lot of racism there, but also my own trauma of being a white man subjugated in America to cancel culture, or perceivingly subjugated to the opinions of others, but I want to try to break free from that. I want to try to be like Patty Smith, who had Revolutionary songs like Nager, Book, or rock ‘n’ roll Nager. She, and you can look this up in interviews, she gave the word no credence she would call a little boy or a little black boy. This name, she called herself and Mick Jagger and Jimi Hendrix this name in her song because it meant nothing to her. And that’s revolutionary, that’s taking the power back is rage against the machine says, and I think it’s important.

It’s important to share ourselves in our honesty and our flaws in our trial Manor history and break through the perfectionistic bullshit that we’re expected to talk here on social media and as the world seems to being tearing apart at the sea sometimes, or it seems to be whatever falling apart, and certainly it’s not, but it can feel that way when you adjust the media I mean, maybe it’s an opportunity for change maybe it’s an opportunity for hope and maybe it’s an opportunity to love one another

And maybe it’s an opportunity for me to share myself with people because even though my friend says racist things maybe it doesn’t make you an evil person. People can use these ideas and start to act on them strangely she had some good points too about white people pitting, Black people, but of course there’s just a lot of racist delusion in her mind and that’s a really hard pill to swallow